I CANT FVCKING BELIEVE I FELL FOR MY STRAIGHT GUY FRIEND. I AM SO UNBELIEVABLY ANGRY AT MYSELF, AT MY FEELINGS, AT WHATEVER GAY HORNY CREATURE INSIDE MY SOUL DECIDED THAT WE LIKE THIS GUY.
okay but seriously this is genuinely hurting me because all i could think about last night was him, all i could think about yesterday was him, and he’s just CONSTANTLY ON MY MIND AND ITS DRIVING ME INSANE. FVCKKKK WHAT DO I DO?!
and even worse my girl bestie has a crush on him, so then I got myself roped in to play Matchmaker with bestie #2, and now I have to go out of my way to IGNORE my feelings and help her at least have her shot with him. Don’t get me wrong, I do wanna see them end up together, but I’m not sure how long this can go on before I freaking lose my sh!t.