paramichael

baaad night

update from my last depression message: it's now October and im doing well. im eating again & am happier more often. it's not perfect and i have my moments of insecurity and weakness but im alright:) on July 1st someone who was like a mother to me passed away, and tomorrow is her birthday. it will be a hard day but i love u all and thank u:))

omg hi guys I'm posting from school!! hmu!!!

back with more messages, i think i need to start taking medicine for my depression, but i don't know how to bring it up to my mom. eating still bad as ever. my friends are worried now. don't know how much longer i can put up with life and stick around i guess

nobody reads these, so i thought, fuck it. lately my depression has been increasingly worse. there's really only one person keeping me alive right now. it's been about a year since it's gotten this bad. i don't eat anymore and i constantly feel useless. i don't have many people to tell this to so i thought i'd put it on my message board just to be able to type it out. because, again, nobody reads it anyway. however, if someone is reading this, i love you and i'm trying my best to stick around.

you know you're in some deep shit when you honestly just want to die, and not for yourself, but because you believe it will benefit others. i know this is lame but im currently struggling with this and have no where else to go with it. nobody will see it anyway

new cover for love, louis !!! :-)

don't lie the worst thing is when you read a ton of books on here and then mix them up and can't remember how far along each larry couple are. :/

follow my twitter @paramichxel !! xxx -riley

@uniquelyxlarry actually i read your "larry recommendations" book and found it and loved it. i have found lots of great books from it, including between the shades of grass, so thank you.