@pluviophiliac
bruh, i hadn’t properly read through my work or revised anything properly in AGES and i legit just did a full-fledged revamp and rewrote so many parts of BROKEN RECORDS. i’m genuinely shook, lol. haven’t been writing ANYTHING for actual years now, this came outta nowhere
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and thank you, by the way! i take great pride in my reading lists. :)
Thanks for adding a bunch of my stuff to your reading lists :)
Hey there! Just saw your reply to me! I hope you wont feel low for too long, I know how that can be! I've been doing well just pushing through this crazy year! It's good to see your around again! :)
damn, you’re really sweet!! thank you.♡
and yeah, i know what you mean. kinda seems like the world‘s heading towards its ending, lol. it’s really been a crazy few months!
but honestly, i’m just really happy to hear from you! you’re still among my top three favorite authors on this goddamn app... i’m kinda honored that you still remember me, hahah. either way, thank you for giving me a reason to smile today! ♡
Hey hun, I appreciate you kindly adding School ReYOUnion to your very lovely library ♥️
has anyone read “human, all to human” by the lovely friedrich nietzsche?
i just finished reading the preface—i’m about to start on section one—and i’m already IN. LITERAL. AWE. of this man’s incredible intellect. and this book has been around for over 150 years now??? i’m just— WOW.
i can’t stop smiling as i’m reading it. i’m so intrigued already, damn... anyone out there who’s read it, too?
@imaboredharley that’s awesome! so you remember which book it was or maybe what it was about? i know exactly what you mean! even though it was from a completely different time, the level of intelligence and perception is still mind-boggling today. i’m astonished! such a brilliant man, ugh. can’t wait to learn more about philosophy (and philosophers) in general.
I have. As a school reading we had to read through a part of the book and then debate on it. I liked it a lot and decided to read the whole. I agree with your second paragraph by the way. Those who are considered 'intelectuals' from the past actually had so much knowledge and even better - a lot to say. It's almost unbelievable and so much different from today when a lot of people just stays quiet ...
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so what do i do when i feel neither? am i supposed to just... quit writing? keep trying? wait it out?
honestly, i wish i had more people encouraging me. no one i know wants to read what write or hear what i have to say. it’s starting to feel pointless, and i suppose no one likes feeling that way... i’m lonely enough as it is.
i’m definitely not going to BEG for reads. i suppose it just sucks knowing that people don’t care as much as you about your tastes and interests. i feel alone, and... kinda weird, i guess. it makes me feel bad about myself.
(maybe i need to work on my horrible self-esteem before asking for anything from someone else, aye?)
but thanks for coming to my TED-talk! it’s been real, it’s been wild, it’s been a waste of tine...
(sorry, lol.)
@dismallove i’m speechless. even though i saw this a few hours back, i had no idea what to respond. seems not even time will help me there, hah. thank you. i doubt you realize the kind of impact you’ve left with me today. i wish i knew what to say. i’m just grateful and so freakin’ touched.
@pluviophiliac if it's any consolation, remember that horrible self esteem is international and pretty much unavoidable for everyone with a heartbeat. it'll greet us all one day. it's a bumpy road we travel for a while until we see the bigger picture. which in your case, is that you write beautifully and you're so beautifully meant for this. please don't doubt yourself, your works have been such chaotic safe havens for me. i smiled more in a day reading your works, than i did in a year. partly, because madness makes me happy, but mostly because your writing is insanely divine. seriously, i day dream about eating a plum in the comfort of my den with the plu-series on a shelf right beside me. (i'm bucket-listing that right now.) don't lose yourself or become discouraged. i'm always, always rooting for you. i'll always, always want to read what you write and hear what you say. be proud of yourself. you're a light and an inspiration and such a goddess with words. i truly adore you.
@pluviophiliac i'll read different styles, both modern and classic. experiment with simplicity and test out more complexity. over-adorning my words. under-embellishing my metaphors. writing a quote. i'll use my body, the way i walk, the way i talk. the things i taste. in short, when i'm robbed of motivation, i realize that there really was nothing missing to begin with. just something new to add. something new to experience. and no, i'm nothing less of a great poet just because i haven't found the words yet. you're nothing less of a phenomenal poet just because the words haven't found you yet. but, when motivation and inspiration seem to linger on their vacation, don't stop exploring. keep supporting others' work, keep experiencing different approaches, keep admiring the way others renovate the art form. people will know you're still here and wait patiently for masterpieces, no matter how long. also, that way you don't die completely, you just sort of artistically decompose. only artistically because you can mend the decay with a new piece and skillfully resurrect yourself. to answer your question without writing an entire essay (my apologies for that by the way). don't quit (i'd die). always keep trying. when necessary, wait it out.
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however... i’m at a standstill. i don’t know what i’m doing, or even what i’m SUPPOSED to be doing, because i don’t know who i am or what i want.
i don’t know what others expect of me.
i know that i like my style and my way of doing things. i know that it’s my own and i take pride in my originality, but i also know that most people probably don’t (or wouldn’t) favor it, and i’m okay with that! however, the lack of attention i’m receiving in the writing department has been both somewhat discouraging and disheartening lately—albeit completely understandable; not gonna lie.
so, my question to you is: how do one receive recognition? how do you get people to notice your work? and, most importantly: how do i motivate myself when i have nothing going for me?
lately, i’ve found myself losing interest in the things i love. i’ve come to the conclusion that it’s because other people don’t seem to share my passions. (sigh.) it’s as frustrating as it is maddening!
why should i lose parts of myself because of other people’s needs and desires? i don’t want to have to depend on other people’s validation. i want to be the one to drive myself forward; to be the one calling the shots and making the judgments. i want write something and feel that sense of pride and accomplishment washing over me without feeling down because no one else (or a select few) are enjoying it.
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i don’t think of myself as a particularly talkative person. or an eloquent one, for that matter! i suppose that’s why it’s hard for me to understand why i found a sense of peace in writing poetry in the first place. in real life, i feel like i struggle a lot with expressing myself in ways that (most) people can/will understand and personally relate to. i find direct social communication to be an especially difficult task—even more so considering i barely even know what i, myself, am feeling or is trying to say most of the time.
yet somehow, i find myself being able to write about some of these things. and i LOVE writing! i really do.
i don’t know how or why. i couldn’t tell you whether i’m particularly good at it or not, because in the end; it’s all subjective and rules by bias. i have no impartial knowledge or power in that department.
honestly, i barely even know what the hell i’m doing most of the time... all i know is that writing has been a great stress relief these past few years. i know it’s always there when i have no one or nothing else to turn to. i know it’s a great way for me to challenge myself and explore my own mind in ways i previously didn’t realize i could. i know it’s something i love and something i don’t want to see myself ever giving up.
@Nyhterides, this is exactly the kind of book i was looking for! :) https://my.w.tt/4hUrOYDAb7
@Nyhterides ohhh, interesting! i’ll definitely look into ALL your books once i find the time and energy. i think i’ve added the majority of your works (the ones i’ve looked into) to at least one of my reading lists. it’ll be great!☺️
@pluviophiliac I saw you added Grotesque, too. Both that and The Maggies are Gothic pieces. Grotesque is actually the first piece I ever wrote that was truly Gothic and got me writing horror so it's my special piece. :) Oh, also, you can check out Savage, it gets pretty dark (kind of The Crow feel, I was inspired by it).