𝕝𝕒𝕫𝕪𝕝𝕩𝕧𝕠𝕠

okay so i’ve been debating on whether or not i should say this because it is VERY heavy so warnings i guess? 
          
          this regards an author on this platform, and i won’t say their name not bcs i wanna protect them but privacy n shit and i’m writing this as a vent kinda
          
          so i met ts guy (btw was AT LEAST ten years older than me, i was 12 at that time) on wattpad through his story, we hit it off and my dumbass gave him my real number.
          
          we started texting and he told me to send him my real name and picture. i told him no at first, but he pulled the manipulating card and said “i post my real stuff online, so it’s only fair you do too.” i sent him a photo of me and my real name. never do that. ever.
          
          afterwards we started going rocky and by the way, his stories are all about his “hot alpha daddy shit” THAT PERSON IS REAL. THE MALE LEAD IS A REAL ACTOR. he is ACTIVELY WRITING SEX SCENES BETWEEN HIM AND A REAL PERSON.
          
          then one day i said send me proof you know him bcs otherwise that’s so fucking creepy. he sent me an image and i was like oh hell naw that don’t look like you. then he got mad and we argued. this bitch is also racist btw cuz i said smthing that WAS NOT RACIST. and he said “well in that case you chinese people all fucking suck”
          
          and i was TWELVE. TWELVE at that time. so i ended up calling him a bitchass fucker who doesn’t know shit and swore at him a lot, i did say wrong things and i wont excuse that, but lee in mind this guy was a grown adult, and basically mini grooming me at that time kind of in a very offish way.
          
          afterwards, i blocked him and recently i found out he’s been still writing the same nasty shit, so idk what to feel. idgaf

uhhh buns guys my bf is deteriorating and he made me cry like five times ts month but like he’s hurting and i wanna help but like i wanna break up but noooo because this is like not smthing to break up over cuz it’s a big decision but huhuhuhujuju 

When I first saw your pfp I got very concerned and that's all I'm saying 

genuinely how the FUCK does enetophobia work. someone explain this to me like i’m five bcs i don’t get it. is it disgust, or is it a fear or some other reaction bcs how does it affect ur anxiety?
          
          also if i started being sick and dying of vomiting in front of someone with enetophobia, does that mean i’ll die before i get help?

holy FUCK ao3 is down again

here’s to not being single this valentines

nom nom

ts too hilarious juliette’s bf only likes her for her boobs

i went to disney with my friends and went on hyperspace and had a panic attack cuz i was scared of the speed
          
          like. i legit couldn’t breath n shit.
          
          but issok now cuz i conquered the fear 

i am so goddamn tired of pretending to be friendly with him/they…