Istill cry when I see videos about him it hurts so bad I've watched him for about 2 years now.
He's the one who brought me back to the community and gave me joy when I couldn't get out of bed.
Alex/Techno was a big part of my mental health getting better when I was abandoned and told to get over my depression. He gave air in the pool I sank into drowning in emotions I'd never felt before but he helped set those ablaze to bring joy, laughter, and all things I'd lost in my journey with depression and suicidal tendencies.
He saved me and I'll never get to thank him.
I think that's what hurts most...