regulusblackdefender

MISS YOU BABY

I need to stop reading tiktok slideshows at night because wtf do you mean
           “Dear mum, 
          I can’t help but wonder if all your sad years, 
          would have been different 
          if you met another man. 
          Although I would not be here without that fate, 
          I just want you to know; 
          I would give you back my life, 
          so you could have yours” 
          - w. f. m.  
          
          I have officially pushed myself to the brink of a mental breakdown, good night. 

why have all my ‘:)’ turned into an emoji on wattpad recently? i don’t like this 

The way I have an entire world and storyline for a book I just can’t find names for the two main characters is killing me 

I have way to many things i think about every single day like being attacked or watched, that girl i fell in love with three years ago who was homophobic, wanting to leave my town, my mothers marriage, how i don’t ever want a marriage like my mothers, that boy i ran into a couple months ago for the first time in 7 years, Amy’s “talent isn’t genius” speech, Fleabags “women are born with pain built in”… All of these things run through my head on a day basis without miss

i’m currently going through my tiktok favorites, the harry potter one, and seeing my old saved videos are giving me soo much deja vu. Like I remember exactly what point i was at in my life last year. it’s crazy 

I just found out Reiky De Valk died?! I’m actually sobbing rn 

i’m so incredibly exhausted.