rosarydevotion

          	TW; SH, SUCIDE & SH !
          	
          	* born to a strictly catholic family a big portion of jude's childhood revolved around the church. the church where he was taught right from wrong. after his parents divorced and his father moved away he was left without a father figure although he'd quickly warm up to priest by the name of father francis. the young boy didn't think much of it when he asked him to meet him a few hours after various services. after all he idolized him. he was a saint. impossible of doing any wrong in his eyes.
          	
          	even the holiest man is a sinner, everyone sins some worse than others. father francis' sin would be one that couldn't ever be forgiven. taking a young boy's innocence from him. although he was far too young to comprehend how wrong it was it continued into his teens and that's when it clicked. that's when he came clean and father francis was found deceased. the coward having taken his own life before the consequences of his actions could catch up. although jude took his death hard and he even felt as if he was responsible for it. afterwards he became so committedn to his religion that it was concerning. every waking moment laced with prayers. seeking other people to help to drown out the guilt.
          	
          	when he was 18 he decided to study, clear his record and mind and become a priest. the kind of priest father francis should've been. after years of study he finally achieved what had became his biggest goal.

eadimidium

you know,  i think i like this look better.  the jeans are nice.  

eadimidium

there’s nothing wrong with wearing jeans.  you’re put together nice.  don’t overthink it.   ( .. )   it’s not like lightning is going to strike you down.  
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rosarydevotion

  ⁽   with  a  sheepish  smile  he  looked  off  to  the  side.  ⁾  thank  you.  it  feels  kind  of  wrong  though.
            
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eadimidium

you know i can’t focus with you over my shoulder like that. 

eadimidium

exactly.    [ she pauses from her book,  placing her pen down as she looks over her shoulder to him. ]    go on—-  say what you want to say.  
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rosarydevotion

  im  —  watching.  im  not  disturbing  you.  
            
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eadimidium

surprise—-  miss me?  

rosarydevotion

   typically  a  place  of  worship  is  quiet,  besides  services.  after  service  it's  silence.  a  place  to  be  alone  with  your  thoughts.  however,  there  is  such  a  thing  as  being  too  alone  with  your  thoughts.  i do  like  a  little  bit  of  noise,  julia.  but  not  everyone  has  to  know  that.
            
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eadimidium

it’s not wrong.    [ she lets her hand drop from resting against the end of the pew.  one step after the other,  slow and deliberate,  she makes her way towards the other. ]    do the others know you like a little bit of n͟o͟i͟s͟e͟?  
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rosarydevotion

  would  it  be  wrong  to  say  i  have?  it's  been  way too  quiet  around  here.
            
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rosarydevotion

          TW; SH, SUCIDE & SH !
          
          * born to a strictly catholic family a big portion of jude's childhood revolved around the church. the church where he was taught right from wrong. after his parents divorced and his father moved away he was left without a father figure although he'd quickly warm up to priest by the name of father francis. the young boy didn't think much of it when he asked him to meet him a few hours after various services. after all he idolized him. he was a saint. impossible of doing any wrong in his eyes.
          
          even the holiest man is a sinner, everyone sins some worse than others. father francis' sin would be one that couldn't ever be forgiven. taking a young boy's innocence from him. although he was far too young to comprehend how wrong it was it continued into his teens and that's when it clicked. that's when he came clean and father francis was found deceased. the coward having taken his own life before the consequences of his actions could catch up. although jude took his death hard and he even felt as if he was responsible for it. afterwards he became so committedn to his religion that it was concerning. every waking moment laced with prayers. seeking other people to help to drown out the guilt.
          
          when he was 18 he decided to study, clear his record and mind and become a priest. the kind of priest father francis should've been. after years of study he finally achieved what had became his biggest goal.