rosatiqun

NEW UPDATE! HIHIHI
          	I just published "<Chapter 20>" of my story "Memory♡ | Sunwoo  [Slow Update]". https://www.wattpad.com/1525931499?utm_source=android&utm_medium=profile&utm_content=share_published&wp_page=create_on_publish&wp_uname=rosatiqun

rosatiqun

I don't know nk cakap apa... 
          
          Patut aku bertuah dihadirkan seseorang macam dia? I mean, sebelum ni nampak sgt aku kena reject. But now? Dilayan seperti seorang yang patut dihargai. Betul ka? Speechless act. Tapi, aku happy sebab dihargai seseorang. Walaupun hanya sementara. Cuma, dialah orang yang pertama buat aku dijaga dan dihargai.
          
          Jaga diri walau di mana pun kamu berada ♡

rosatiqun

Wanna know something about choice?
          
          Okay, this is my story.
          
          I already made a confession to someone years ago. What can I tell you is, it's hard for me to stay. But, guess what? Here, I am. Stay right here. No title, no certainty. I'm just here, to see how this story goes. With the person who showed me, how I should be treated when I like them. Yeah, he showed me a positive things. Just a little naughty teasing won't be enough to make us shut up or stay away from each other. We only stay apart when we each have our own lives. That's all. There's no such thing as staying apart if we're hurt or anything like that. There's no point in getting hurt by someone who is not sure, will be our jodoh or not. That's what I learned while being friends with him.
          
          And, about choice...
          
          I realize that my chance to be his first choice is low. This is what I want to tell you. 
          
          When you take the first move, you might be rejected. Otherwise, you might be accepted. And, if he accepts you... You can't say you will be with him one day. Cause, your chance is very low. Or, to make it clear, your chance to not be his choice is high. 
          
          Same like me. My chance to not be his choice is very high. The one who likes first is me. Then, whatever happens I have to prepare or avoid loving him by now. I should just stay to like him. To prevent myself from being hurt. 
          
          In this case I also want to say, I shouldn't blame him if he didn't choose me. Why? Who started first? Who took the first move? Me or him? Yeah, me. So, this case is all on me not him. I shouldn't blame him for not choosing me. From the start, I have to know my chance to be his lover. Yeah, my chance to be his choice is low.

rosatiqun

@rosatiqun If you read this, please think wisely before you want to take the first move. I'm not saying you will not have any chance to be someone (you like)'s choice. But, please think deeply. Will you be able to stay like I did? I don't know why I can stay till today. Only Allah know♡
            
            I think I will stay by his side until he finds someone. If it happens, I'm pretty sure that he's not my jodoh. It's hard to face it but I will try hard to not cry. I wish. 
            
            This is my promise, I will wait until he finds someone one day. Cuz, I want to see he happy with someone he loves. Even, his jodoh is not me. Yeah, I will always remember my promise. InsyaAllah✿
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rosatiqun

No wonder tak cari dah...
          Dah ada peneman yg lain.
          Teruskanlah. Saya takkan halang.
          
          Plus, tak nak peduli. If saya peduli, buat sakit hati ja, buat apa?
          
          So, live your own life. No need to mind others.
          
          Nak hilang jap sehari lagi. Malas nk kisah pasal hg. 
          Kalau tak cari, faham la kita ni tak penting kan?
          
          Faham, sibuk. Sibuk la, tak nak kacau pun. Tak yah kisah pun pasal saya. Saya oky ja. 
          
          Tak menyebabkan kematian pun kalau awak tak cari saya (⁠✿⁠^⁠‿⁠^⁠)
          
          It's okay, I got it! GOT IT!!

rosatiqun

Nak luah something...
          
          As a UiTM student, hari ni kitorang dapat keputusan sama ada permohonan kolej (asrama), berjaya ka tak.
          
          Guess what?
          I did it!! Tak sia2 join macam2 aktiviti sem lepas HAHAHA 
          
          Tapi tu la, diorg campak kitorang ni duduk kolej paling jauhhhhhh daripada bangunan kuliah. 
          
          Dari Mahsuri, kena campak ke Murni ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ
          
          Everyone feels so sad including me. But, excited. Ya la, teringin nak rasa suasana yang baru. Asyik duduk Mahsuri ja. Sem 3 ni, tukar la environment pulak. Kan, menarik mcm tu
          
          Tiba2, rasa excited pulak nak balik uni purple HAHAHA 
          
          Org akan cakap Atiq gila, but...
          I'm not. Bila fikir2 balik, tak salah nak tukar environment. Pasal jauh tu, halah. Gi jalan awal2 la. Tak susah pun. Yg susahnya, jenis yg suka sidai kawan lama2. 
          
          So, saya mengambil keputusan, nk jalan gi kelas sorg2. Tak nak tunggu sapa2. Biarlah org ckp Atiq ni sombong pun. Cuz, Atiq jenis yg suka tepati masa. Not like others. 
          
          So, lepak la dkt mana2. Surau ka library ka. Kan lebih bagus. Habis semua kelas, terus balik bilik. Tak susah pun ಡ⁠ ͜⁠ ⁠ʖ⁠ ⁠ಡ
          
          Kita ja yg suka buat susah, kan?
          
          Ok, habis membebel

rosatiqun

@merrasian faham2. Exactly, tak tunggu nanti kata kita ni mengada pulak, tak reti sabo. Even, depa tak kata pun, still risau. Ya la, malas nk bermusuh dgn org. Masuk uni, nk chill ja. Plus, Atiq ni anak sulung, so mmg dah dididik untuk menepati masa. Lewat sikit ja, mulalah nak gelabah. Tak suka last minute, sbb itu akan membuatkan Atiq tak boleh rileks. Dtg kelas, tak nak la tercungap-cungap. Nak datang dgn nafas yg teratur. Entahlah, kaki automatik laju bila dah tahu dah lewat ಡ⁠ ͜⁠ ⁠ʖ⁠ ⁠ಡ
            
            Bergantung kepada pihak kolej. But, if since sem 1 dah memang apply bilik 4 org, sampai bila2 pun rasanya mmg bilik berempat la. And, kalau rumet tu tak apply apa jawatan yg menjaminkan depa dpt kolej, insyaallah rumet akan kekal. Time sem 2, ramai kawan2 yg dpt rumet yg sama. Dan, bilik diorg pun sama. Kecuali, saya. Mahsuri jugak, blok f4, since sem 1 until sem 2. Bezanya, dari tingkat 3 turun ke tingkat paling bawah. Kesimpulannya, bergantung la kepada pihak kolej mana pun depa nak campak kita. Asalkan, dpt kolej. Tu ja la. Redha dah kalau tak dpt rumet yg sama. Sbb, rumet pun baik2. Plus, sekepala semuanya. Alhamdulillah. Hopefully, kekal lagi la
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merrasian

@rosatiqun hahaha faham sangat. dulu selalu naik bas dgn classmates, tapi selalu kena sidai so jas pergi je kelas sendiri. tak m ati pun sorang2, asalkan tak jadi kera sumbang. just keep being punctual, girl! dulu jas kalau janji dgn org kul 9 pagi, 8.59 dah terpacak dpn bilik dorang sampai buat dorang tak selesa HAHAHAA.
            
            anyways, biasanya uitm tukar bilik setiap sem eh? kiranya you guys cannot request specific bilik lah eh? uish macam susah. Kalau uni jas, masa dapat result lulus ke tak, terus boleh apply bilik mana yg nak. tapi tulah, students mmg suka menyewa je, sbbtu senang dpt bilik hahaa
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rosatiqun

It feels hurt when I realize my mental breakdown. When people/my friend asking me, if I'm crazy... I will never deny cuz... It's true. I used to talk with myself. I feel so comfortable. 
          
          I don't know... When I realize my mental breakdown, I wanna cry. But, I can't. Why? I don't know either. It's hard to explain... But, I hope it won't last longer. I can't stand it anymore.
          
          So, this is my test throughout being the eldest daughter. It's hard to find a comfortable place to express everything because not everyone can understand what we say except ourselves. Am I right?
          
          But, I almost forgot that...
          Allah always understands us in any situation. I feel so sins cuz I forget that Allah can heal me anytime I need Him.
          
          Allah knows I can throughout this test. Allah also knows that I am strong. If not, I'll never be the eldest daughter in this family, right?
          
          Be strong, myself ❤️