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okay I don't have anyone that I can tell this so I'm just gonna write it here.
My friends don't feel like they're are my friends, I always feel like a outsider when I'm with them and it feels like I don't belong, it hurts to know that I'm so irrelevant in their lives and that they literally don't give a shit about me, I just wanna matter to someone, I want real friends that I can talk to and people that care about me, I want someone to ask if I'm okay, I'm just tired of trying so hard and never being good enough for anyone.