samdrama

Maybe it will be a better tomorrow
          	Maybe it’s not actually a lie
          	Hope prevails humanity
          	In my worst form 
          	I knew, that someday I’ll be better
          	And I did get better
          	But a ghost kept on haunting me
          	The regret, the fear, the pain
          	I held too much
          	And I beared too much.
          	I still fought, cause I’m a human.
          	My ghost transformed in shape
          	A friend in disguise
          	A devilish thought
          	An evil dare.
          	Objectified, under stress and worried.
          	My steps faded , and my effort seemed unreal
          	As if the “me” now has disappeared, leaving an old broken version.
          	Lies, lies.
          	I didn’t accept it.
          	My past generations taught me 
          	I had to resist 
          	My culture of life
          	I learned at least one thing. 
          	It’s that I won’t give up
          	I hope, for life
          	Until death do us apart.
          	I put my faith in you, who created me and this life.
          	It’s a hard challenge, if I dare to say.
          	However you’re whom I rely on. 
          	As my ancestors said, unconsciously
          	“ peace be upon you”
          	Hold this peace upon me and keep it. 
          	An umbrella that will never moulder
          	Peaceful and safe.
          	3rd of October, still here ❤️

samdrama

Maybe it will be a better tomorrow
          Maybe it’s not actually a lie
          Hope prevails humanity
          In my worst form 
          I knew, that someday I’ll be better
          And I did get better
          But a ghost kept on haunting me
          The regret, the fear, the pain
          I held too much
          And I beared too much.
          I still fought, cause I’m a human.
          My ghost transformed in shape
          A friend in disguise
          A devilish thought
          An evil dare.
          Objectified, under stress and worried.
          My steps faded , and my effort seemed unreal
          As if the “me” now has disappeared, leaving an old broken version.
          Lies, lies.
          I didn’t accept it.
          My past generations taught me 
          I had to resist 
          My culture of life
          I learned at least one thing. 
          It’s that I won’t give up
          I hope, for life
          Until death do us apart.
          I put my faith in you, who created me and this life.
          It’s a hard challenge, if I dare to say.
          However you’re whom I rely on. 
          As my ancestors said, unconsciously
          “ peace be upon you”
          Hold this peace upon me and keep it. 
          An umbrella that will never moulder
          Peaceful and safe.
          3rd of October, still here ❤️

samdrama

Amidst all the pain
          A flicker of hope shines through the rain
          It isn’t my last day 
          Or at least that’s what I want to say.
          Through my veins 
          I feel a deep sharp pain
          Neausea,I pray and I pray.
          I believe in him, up in the skies.
          So why can’t I go, why should I hide?
          Do they have to look away? 
          Am I nude? 
          I’m a human, it’s okay , you can look.
          My heart, it has sins, I know.
          Though it also has love , you know?
          You hug me now, protect me too
          But what will you do when it’s you?
          I’m sorry , I wasn’t enough. 
          I didn’t realize in the rush. 
          That I needed to be something to you
          More than a mere nothing
          A void , I fade when you’re through.
          I love you, may you love “me” too?
          30th sep

samdrama

Is this really goodbye?..
          2 days god. 
          I believe in your existence.
          So don’t make me inexistant
          Hidden in a corner, ostracized.
          No one looks, I’m going mad 
          Flames on my hand but no ambulance 
          I try to get it out 
          But it eats and it eats
          Until my body’s filled with hate
          And my mind’s with evil
          I’m exhausted, I’m in pain
          I try to get away
          Their love holds me back
          Can’t I be sane?
          What should I choose? 
          I got lots to lose
          A family, a father, a mom and brothers
          Or a love of whom I can’t catch a feather.
          23,sep

QuinceArchFortes

@samdrama I was very happy to see your reply! I'm rooting for you and hope you don't hesitate to reach out in the future. Thank you for taking the time to let me know you made it through ❤︎
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samdrama

@QuinceArchFortes it’s been better I guess, thank you for your concern ❤️ I’m still standing. I hope for a good ending or at least a new beginning.
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QuinceArchFortes

@samdrama I hope this past week has been kinder to you! I stumbled upon your post and just wanted to share that the hardest parts are always temporary and that I hope to hear back from you <3 I also have my Discord username in my bio, if you'd rather not talk publicly.
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samdrama

بِصمتِ الشيطان خرِسوا 
          ينظرون إلى ألمي و يلُفُّون رؤوسَهُم 
          ظنًا بذلِك أنهُ يتوقّفُ 
          تنزِلُ دِمائي فآخذُ السِّكين 
          أغرزُها كي توقِف الألمَ 
          لا تُزِلها فإن راحَت 
          راحَ قلبي و معهُ الهوى
          رقمٌ ينقُص من أصلِ مليار 
          لا يهُّم ، و لكِنِّي إنسانٌ بِفكرٍ 
          أفَلا أُهم؟ 
          فتبًا لهُم و تبًا لحياة تحِي 
          أناسًا بدونِ خَلقٍ 
          و ذو خلقٍ تُميت.