Hi,
It has been almost two years since I began translating in January 2024. In that time, I went through five accounts, all of which were deleted, including my most recent one. When that happened, I did not immediately try to start over. I paused and asked myself what I truly wanted to do next.
I considered building a website, but I knew I would not have the energy to maintain it. I thought about returning to Scribble as well. I do have an account there, but my previous translations were deleted, and I never found the heart to reupload them. I started there before moving to Wattpad, and even after everything that happened, I kept trying to come back. I did not want to give up on this platform, and I tried my best to stay.
This time, however, I am choosing to step away.
What I finally acknowledged is how much anxiety posting here has brought me. Each update came with fear, and each chapter felt like a deadline. I pushed myself too hard, spending entire days translating just to meet expectations I placed on myself. Slowly, something that once gave me joy became mentally exhausting.
That realization was painful, because translation was never meant to feel like this. I started translating because it gave me a quiet sense of accomplishment, because I loved these stories deeply and wanted to share them with others. Through this, I met many kind and thoughtful people. We exchanged recommendations, talked about novels we loved, and built small connections that meant more to me than I can properly express.
As I move into 2026, I want to carry a different mindset. I want to translate because I enjoy it, in the same way I enjoy other simple, creative things in my life. I do not want it to feel like a responsibility or a race. I want to work at my own pace, without pressure, guilt, or fear.
I am not stopping. I am simply setting boundaries for myself.
