secularpoet

Hey everyone, I'm sorry I keep disappearing every few months!  I get into this writing groove, and then it disappears, and I either get distracted or life gets in the way or my mental health gets in the way, or all of the above...
          	
          	I'm so happy ya'll are still tagging along, and I apologize for making everyone wait. I hope one day I will finish the AVP fanfic, but I am still on and off. Maybe I can update soon enough. 
          	
          	Thank you for your support and interest!

whistleDemon

@secularpoet been awhile, hope you're good
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secularpoet

@bibiniewan You're so sweet, I really appreciate your response! The tables have definitely turned, as I got promoted to a manager position at my current job, so it's definitely gotten better:) Aside from the downs, however, of retail and the work environment, but I get through and am just glad to have a good reltaion with various  coworkers as of right now. I was pretty mentally and physically burnt out and immensely exhausted by it all, but lately, I finally had a sort of push to wake myself up from the grasp of whatever was holding me down in my void and start sleeping better and waking up, looking forward to another day and just get by with the retail work and hope for the best as I continue going with the flow! I hope to get to continuing and finish this book eventually, and I appreciate everyone's interest and time in reading, so thank you :)
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bibiniewan

@secularpoet ʰᵉʸ! ᴵ'ᵐ ⁿᵉʷ ʰᵉʳᵉ ᵗʰᵒᵘᵍʰ, ᴵ ʰᵒᵖᵉ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᵈᵒᶦⁿᵍ ᵍᵒᵒᵈ ᵒʳ ᵃᵗ ˡᵉᵃˢᵗ ᴵⁿ ᵃ ᵇᶦᵗ ˢᵗᵃᵇˡᵉ ʷᵃʸ! ᴵ ʲᵘˢᵗ ˢᵃʷ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᴬⱽᴾ ᴮᴼᴼᴷ, ᴵ ᵘˢᵘᵃˡˡʸ ᵍᵒ ˢᵗʳᵃᶦᵍʰᵗ ᵗᵒ ᵗʰᵉ ˡᵃᵗᵉˢᵗ ᵘᵖᵈᵃᵗᵉ ᶦⁿ ᵇᵒᵒᵏˢ ʲᵘˢᵗ ᶦⁿ ᶜᵃˢᵉ ᶦᶠ ᵗʰᵉ ᵃᵘᵗʰᵒʳ ᵈᵉᶜᶦᵈᵉᵈ ᵗᵒ ᵈᶦˢᶜᵒⁿᵗᶦⁿᵘᵉ ʷʳᶦᵗᶦⁿᵍ ᵃⁿᵈ ᴵ ʳᵉᵃᵈ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᴬ/ᴺ. ᴵ ʰᵒᵖᵉ ʸᵒᵘ ᶜᵒᵘˡᵈ ʷʳᶦᵗᵉ ᶦᵗ! ᴵ'ᵐ ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ᵗᵒ ʳᵉᵃᵈ ᶦᵗ ʳᶦᵍʰᵗ ᵃᶠᵗᵉʳ ᵗʰᶦˢ. ᴵ ʲᵘˢᵗ ʷᵃⁿᵗ ᵗᵒ ˡᵉᵃᵛᵉ ᵃ ᵐᵉˢˢᵃᵍᵉ ʰᵉʳᵉ! ᴵ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ ᵘˢᵘᵃˡˡʸ ᵐᵉˢˢᵃᵍᵉ ᵒʳ ʳᵉᵖˡʸ ᵗᵒ ᵗʰᶦⁿᵍˢ ˡᶦᵏᵉ ᵗʰᶦˢ ᵇᵘᵗ ᴵ ᵍᵘᵉˢˢ ʳᵉᵃᵈᶦⁿᵍ ʸᵒᵘʳ ˡᶦᵗᵗˡᵉ ˢᵗᵒʳʸ ᵒᶠ ʸᵒᵘ ᵇᵉᶦⁿᵍ ᶠᶦʳᵉᵈ ʲᵘˢᵗ ˡᶦᵗ ˢᵒᵐᵉᵗʰᶦⁿᵍ ᶦⁿ ᵐᵉ, ᴵ ᵍᵘᵉˢˢ ᴵ ᶜᵒᵘˡᵈ ʳᵉˡᵃᵗᵉ ᵃ ᵇᶦᵗ ᵒᶠ ᶦᵗ ᵇᵘᵗ ᵃⁿʸʷᵃʸˢ, ᴵ ʰᵒᵖᵉ ʸᵒᵘ ᶜᵒᵘˡᵈ ᵍᵉᵗ ᵇᵉᵗᵗᵉʳ ᵒʳ ᵃᵗ ˡᵉᵃˢᵗ ˢᵗᵃᵇˡᵉ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ ᵖʳᵉˢˢᵘʳᵉ ʸᵒᵘʳˢᵉˡᶠ ᵗᵒᵒ ᵐᵘᶜʰ, ᴵᵐ ⁿᵒᵗ ˢᵘʳᵉ ᶦᶠ ᵐʸ ʷᵒʳᵈˢ ᵐᵃᵏᵉˢ ʸᵒᵘ ᵃⁿⁿᵒʸᵉᵈ ᵇᵉᶜᵃᵘˢᵉ ˢᵒᵐᵉ ᵐᵃʸ ᵗʰᶦⁿᵏ ᴵ'ᵐ ᵇᵉᶦⁿᵍ ᶦⁿˢᵉⁿˢᶦᵗᶦᵛᵉ ᵇᵘᵗ ˡᶦᶠᵉ ᶦˢ ʰᵃʳᵈ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵇʸ ᵗʰᵉ ʷᵃʸˢ ʸᵒᵘ ʷʳᶦᵗᵉ ᵍᶦᵛᵉˢ ᵐᵉ ᵃ ˢᵗʳᵒⁿᵍ ᵖᵉʳˢᵒⁿ ᵇᵉʰᶦⁿᵈ ᵗʰᶦˢ, ˢᵒ ᵍᵒᵒᵈ ˡᵘᶜᵏ ᵃⁿᵈ ʰᵃᵛᵉ ᶠᵘⁿ ʷʰᶦˡᵉ ʷᵉ ˢᵗᶦˡˡ ˡᶦᵛᵉ ᵃⁿᵈ ᶜʰᵉʳᶦˢʰ ᵉᵛᵉʳʸ moment♥︎
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secularpoet

Hey everyone, I'm sorry I keep disappearing every few months!  I get into this writing groove, and then it disappears, and I either get distracted or life gets in the way or my mental health gets in the way, or all of the above...
          
          I'm so happy ya'll are still tagging along, and I apologize for making everyone wait. I hope one day I will finish the AVP fanfic, but I am still on and off. Maybe I can update soon enough. 
          
          Thank you for your support and interest!

whistleDemon

@secularpoet been awhile, hope you're good
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secularpoet

@bibiniewan You're so sweet, I really appreciate your response! The tables have definitely turned, as I got promoted to a manager position at my current job, so it's definitely gotten better:) Aside from the downs, however, of retail and the work environment, but I get through and am just glad to have a good reltaion with various  coworkers as of right now. I was pretty mentally and physically burnt out and immensely exhausted by it all, but lately, I finally had a sort of push to wake myself up from the grasp of whatever was holding me down in my void and start sleeping better and waking up, looking forward to another day and just get by with the retail work and hope for the best as I continue going with the flow! I hope to get to continuing and finish this book eventually, and I appreciate everyone's interest and time in reading, so thank you :)
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bibiniewan

@secularpoet ʰᵉʸ! ᴵ'ᵐ ⁿᵉʷ ʰᵉʳᵉ ᵗʰᵒᵘᵍʰ, ᴵ ʰᵒᵖᵉ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᵈᵒᶦⁿᵍ ᵍᵒᵒᵈ ᵒʳ ᵃᵗ ˡᵉᵃˢᵗ ᴵⁿ ᵃ ᵇᶦᵗ ˢᵗᵃᵇˡᵉ ʷᵃʸ! ᴵ ʲᵘˢᵗ ˢᵃʷ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᴬⱽᴾ ᴮᴼᴼᴷ, ᴵ ᵘˢᵘᵃˡˡʸ ᵍᵒ ˢᵗʳᵃᶦᵍʰᵗ ᵗᵒ ᵗʰᵉ ˡᵃᵗᵉˢᵗ ᵘᵖᵈᵃᵗᵉ ᶦⁿ ᵇᵒᵒᵏˢ ʲᵘˢᵗ ᶦⁿ ᶜᵃˢᵉ ᶦᶠ ᵗʰᵉ ᵃᵘᵗʰᵒʳ ᵈᵉᶜᶦᵈᵉᵈ ᵗᵒ ᵈᶦˢᶜᵒⁿᵗᶦⁿᵘᵉ ʷʳᶦᵗᶦⁿᵍ ᵃⁿᵈ ᴵ ʳᵉᵃᵈ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᴬ/ᴺ. ᴵ ʰᵒᵖᵉ ʸᵒᵘ ᶜᵒᵘˡᵈ ʷʳᶦᵗᵉ ᶦᵗ! ᴵ'ᵐ ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ᵗᵒ ʳᵉᵃᵈ ᶦᵗ ʳᶦᵍʰᵗ ᵃᶠᵗᵉʳ ᵗʰᶦˢ. ᴵ ʲᵘˢᵗ ʷᵃⁿᵗ ᵗᵒ ˡᵉᵃᵛᵉ ᵃ ᵐᵉˢˢᵃᵍᵉ ʰᵉʳᵉ! ᴵ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ ᵘˢᵘᵃˡˡʸ ᵐᵉˢˢᵃᵍᵉ ᵒʳ ʳᵉᵖˡʸ ᵗᵒ ᵗʰᶦⁿᵍˢ ˡᶦᵏᵉ ᵗʰᶦˢ ᵇᵘᵗ ᴵ ᵍᵘᵉˢˢ ʳᵉᵃᵈᶦⁿᵍ ʸᵒᵘʳ ˡᶦᵗᵗˡᵉ ˢᵗᵒʳʸ ᵒᶠ ʸᵒᵘ ᵇᵉᶦⁿᵍ ᶠᶦʳᵉᵈ ʲᵘˢᵗ ˡᶦᵗ ˢᵒᵐᵉᵗʰᶦⁿᵍ ᶦⁿ ᵐᵉ, ᴵ ᵍᵘᵉˢˢ ᴵ ᶜᵒᵘˡᵈ ʳᵉˡᵃᵗᵉ ᵃ ᵇᶦᵗ ᵒᶠ ᶦᵗ ᵇᵘᵗ ᵃⁿʸʷᵃʸˢ, ᴵ ʰᵒᵖᵉ ʸᵒᵘ ᶜᵒᵘˡᵈ ᵍᵉᵗ ᵇᵉᵗᵗᵉʳ ᵒʳ ᵃᵗ ˡᵉᵃˢᵗ ˢᵗᵃᵇˡᵉ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ ᵖʳᵉˢˢᵘʳᵉ ʸᵒᵘʳˢᵉˡᶠ ᵗᵒᵒ ᵐᵘᶜʰ, ᴵᵐ ⁿᵒᵗ ˢᵘʳᵉ ᶦᶠ ᵐʸ ʷᵒʳᵈˢ ᵐᵃᵏᵉˢ ʸᵒᵘ ᵃⁿⁿᵒʸᵉᵈ ᵇᵉᶜᵃᵘˢᵉ ˢᵒᵐᵉ ᵐᵃʸ ᵗʰᶦⁿᵏ ᴵ'ᵐ ᵇᵉᶦⁿᵍ ᶦⁿˢᵉⁿˢᶦᵗᶦᵛᵉ ᵇᵘᵗ ˡᶦᶠᵉ ᶦˢ ʰᵃʳᵈ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵇʸ ᵗʰᵉ ʷᵃʸˢ ʸᵒᵘ ʷʳᶦᵗᵉ ᵍᶦᵛᵉˢ ᵐᵉ ᵃ ˢᵗʳᵒⁿᵍ ᵖᵉʳˢᵒⁿ ᵇᵉʰᶦⁿᵈ ᵗʰᶦˢ, ˢᵒ ᵍᵒᵒᵈ ˡᵘᶜᵏ ᵃⁿᵈ ʰᵃᵛᵉ ᶠᵘⁿ ʷʰᶦˡᵉ ʷᵉ ˢᵗᶦˡˡ ˡᶦᵛᵉ ᵃⁿᵈ ᶜʰᵉʳᶦˢʰ ᵉᵛᵉʳʸ moment♥︎
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secularpoet

I had three days off this week, then a 4th because the car wouldn't crank yesterday, but I've honestly had one of those depressive episodes threatening to settle. 
          
          I've been fighting it back so hard, I'm at the point today of pushing myself to do things, I tried writing last night before bed but I became so frustrated because I couldn't write. 
          
          I just want ya'll to know I am thinking of the stories, and of everyone who has been super supportive and is enjoying the story. I can't wait to get to it again, but I just want to give ya'll a heads, though I once preferred keeping this stuff to myself, that I am having a bump with my mental state lately. 
          
          It's like I'm okay, but emotionally some painful memories or just this dreadfulness wants to sink into me y'know? It's normal for past pain to come around here and there, because that's a part of us, but it's super annoying, especially when you think you're over or moved on from it. 
          
          Anyways, happy holidays loves <3