I won't wake up and cry
I won't lie still and die
But if I wake up tomorrow
Can i ever find myself,
A girl I love who has a boyfriend,
A girl I play with because I'm dumb
A boy who's my bro who's this chicks boyfriend,
In all myself I can't find myself,
And if I do can I say I'm sorry enough?
Say I'm sorry for using her
Calling her names
Making fun of her
I never thought it would be too late
I never even got to say goodbye
I can't find myself
But I won't let myself make me a whimp,
I move on knowing I've lost you
And this account is a painful reminder of who you once were.
I look at you and see him
I see shun
Looking back at me
His dark green eyes,
Darken over the coldness of his heart
I look at you and see the dyed hair to fit in, the dark clothing to cry yourself to sleep,
And the fake lip rings, next year they will be real
But Maddie
When I look at you
I see the worst thing ever.
I see a angel who chained itself up in a maze.
And starved itself from light,
Now can I apologize one last time?
Or have I lost you forever