Hi all.
As you will notice, my stories are no longer available to read. I've unpublished them for the time being because I am unhappy with them. I'm unhappy with myself. I feel like I have no identity, as a writer, as a person, as a daughter. I'm struggling with my grief right now. I'm struggling with a lot of things. I haven't written in months and I have little desire to right now. It's hard for me to explain exactly what I'm feeling right now because it's a lot. Everything is a lot right now.
I am okay. I am safe. I realize some of this might come off weird or in the wrong way. I'm surrounded by people who love and care for me. I am not along in my grief. I guess I'm just saying all of this because it's been troubling me for a while, worrying about things that just unfortunately don't feel so important anymore. That's the thing about loss, it can put things into perspective. And that isn't to say the stories I wrote or any of you who read and appreciated them are no worthwhile. I appreciate you all so much and cannot thank you enough for allowing me to have this opportunity to write and be a part of something great. I just need some space.
I'm going to take a step away from being online so much. I'm going to try other hobbies, to get out more, to live in the present moment. I'm going to improve my physical and mental health. I'm going to do a lot of things I've always wanted to do that I didn't make time for previously. I hope you all understand.
Thank you <3