hey man i don’t really know what to say here, i really just hope you get better and find help. i really love your writing because it’s truly amazing, i hope you get better and push through whatever you’re going through. though i don’t quite understand stand your situation, i really hope you get better. i’m here to talk or whatever (you never have to,) but ily!!! after reading this maybe go shower, get some healthy food, (but filling,) and some water and go rest :)) again, ilysm please push through, i know it’s really hard but with the right tools, ik it’ll get better (sorry this is kinda just me rambling but please take care of yourself!) </33333