I have a fear of getting betrayed and cheated on; the crazy thing is I have never been in a relationship. But my fear is irrational and still there. 

I want the old type of love. The one where two people work hard to prove to each other that they're in fact in love with you and are willing to spend the rest of their life with you and only you. 

I will have an image of myself that I can paint one day and call it beautiful enough to hang up on the wall. 

(The books I write are just ideas, I don't have set dates to update, but I'll definitely finish 'celibacy' first.. )