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Making my way through TOUCH and editing you know who out, and sheesh, the writing- damn, how could y’all stand that- I’m cringing, I could write so much better than back then, def not anything masterful but at least better than THAT
          
          
          btw on editing you know who out, I don’t plan on editing him out of any completed stories as mostly they’re done, and I can’t remember if he’s a big character in any of the stories but since most of my stories are Yuta centered, I def had their friendship strong in stories, so it’ll prob be a hassle to edit him out and wiggle the story around a little to exclude him. Those stories also ended way before everything came to light. And I can’t be bothered much to change the stories, they’ve been laid to rest
          
          However I’ll edit him out of ongoing stories as there’s a lot more leg room to still alter the stories as well, y’all know I’m not that big on planning out story lines and am a lot more of a go with the flow when it comes to writing. It will take a while, currently my interest in KPOP is low, and when it comes to writing I want to try out other fandoms, so it may take a while to get to editing, but I will get it done

I just read Song of Achilles and I’m sobbing so hard, ugly crying, would scream if everyone in my house wasn’t asleep rn and just URGH, LIKE I KNOW VAGUELY HOW THE MYTH GOES, I KNEW AT THE LEAST THAT THEYD DIE YET IM SO TAKEN BY TEARS

I’ve been in a EPIC: The Musical + Greek mythology phase since my friends sat down and forced me to listen/watch it the Saturday after thanksgiving, AND THE LAST SAGA/FIVE SONGS CAME OUT TODAY AND OH MY GOD THEYRE GORGEOUSSLSNSKSHOSBSKSBZKS 10/10 do recommend 

Two of the five colleges I’ve applied to have accepted me wooooo the other three decisions come out in January, but like, one do the two that have already gotten back is the one I want to go to anyway so like, ayy
          The college I want to go to, said I wasn’t eligible for the main campus- rude, jk -but I got to one of the regional campus so I’ll jsut go there for a year and then transfer for the main campus
           I’m actually going to major in Korean! My motivation for that is that I want to be a literary translator so :)

Finally am exiting you know who out of TOUCH, and sheesh, I can only handle a few chapters at a time— having to read my own writing- even if I’m just skimming- 
          
          I sincerely hope my more recent pieces are better
          
          
          
          I say that as if I’ve written anything recently—
          
          Anyways idk how y’all handled reading TOUCH much less any of the stories I’ve written—

I read this Bl manga yesterday called Zanzou Slow Motion, and it was lit, enemies to roommates to lovers, awesome, but it s only 7 chapters long so it’s not the longest thing ever, but it was great, so I tried to see if there’s a second volume or anything, but all I found was the anime adaptation, but I guess it was part of a series cuz the couple in the Zanzou Slow Motion were only focused on in 3 episodes, but the majority of the episodes (12 of them) were focused on this other couple, so I did some googling, AND THE COUPLE IN ZANZOU SLOW MOTION ARE THE SUPPORTING CHARACTERS AND ZANZOU SLOW MOTION IS THE SPIN OFF OF TASOGARE OUTFOCUS ㅠㅠ
          
          Anyways idk if I’ll read Tasogare Outfocus or not, but I 10/10 recommend Zanzou Slow Motion, it’s cute, funny, a bit of smut, lit

Seeing what OT6 “Briize” have done within the two singular fucking days that Seunghan was back pisses me off. I’ve been scrolling Twitter for less than 10 minutes and seeing what they did- especially the Korean ones, gosh it’s infuriating.
          
          These are grownass adults with supposedly fully developed frontal lobes spending money on funeral wreaths that can only send the message of them wanting him dead because why the fuck else would you send ≈One-fucking-thousand of them to a literal 21 year old whose only “crime” was— give me a second let me check my notes— DATE SOMEONE AND SMOKE? AS A TEENAGER? P R E D E B U T . I don’t even keep up with Riize much besides listen to the title tracks of their comebacks but this whole Thing has me so irritated. 
          
          How delusional can these people be? Grown adults getting mad at a barely adult for having had a relationship as a teenager (you know, something so many people do??) and smoking (again, something quite a lot of teenagers also do, I can only imagine it happens more often in such a pressuring society). People are so delusional over idols and their parasocial relationships it’s actually insane. Like, do you expect them to not have had a life before being an idol? To not have a life outside of being an idol? Being an idol is their job, and they have a life outside of it, stop thinking that just because they’re public figures and that you spend money on them that you have ownership over any part of their person. People really need to get over themselves and find reality. 
          
          
          Anyways, rant over.

So… about TOUCH, I’m going to put that on hold/hiatus for now… plans were to make Taeil and Haechan more active characters, and with everything going on with Taeil…
          
          I’m an ‘innocent until proven guilty’ but also a sympathize with the victims person, so I’ll wait until there’s more info and statements released but honestly… it took SM nearly 2 years to decide on Lucas leaving NCT after the allegations and accusations, and for them to make Taeil leave the group the same day the accusations started getting traction (I feel like that’s not the right word but that’s the best word I can come up with right now[it seems like it’s all coming to light in the recent hours, but I’m not on Twitter or being really active on the KPOP side of things rn so I’m not 100% sure if this all blew up today or yesterday or something) not gonna lie… I’m not the most hopeful on a positive outcome at all
          
          For now, in my other fics, if I publish anything I won’t have Taeil be in the rest of the fic because well, fuck, if they really are true I’d rather have anything mentioning him as minimal as possible 
          
          
          
          *in case the ‘innocent until proven guilty’ thing rubs people the wrong way as I know a lot of people are more of the ‘guilty until proven innocent’ way of thinking, know that I do not support anything that is being accused, it’s disgusting as hell, and I’m not saying he’s innocent, but I’m not going to immediately claim him as 100% guilty, and I’m not going to claim the victim as lying
          
          **there’s a lot I don’t know about this, I’ve only been on Twitter twice today, read the little I can between schoolwork and such, so I’m not the most informed, so feel free to take anything I say with a grain of salt, but I just wanted to give a warning as with what I do know, there’s probably a good chance I might have to change a bit of TOUCH in the future and that it’s known enough that I do not support any of what is accused and will not continue to support someone who’s done such things 

Now imagine, NCT Avatar the Last Airbender AU/ATLA world AU
          Fire bender Yuta x earth bender Sicheng per chance? Background Mark as Aang and Taeyong as Zuko and doing their thing of ending the war lol

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