Warning: 
The only purpose of this account is to share my story.
I don't know if it will help you or only make things worse. This is my life for the past year and still ongoing. 
This is definitely not a love story.
This is story of suffering, affliction, love, attachment, a whole lot of pain and the never ending fear of not knowing the future and what is to happen next. That's my life. 
You've been invited to read it, learn from it, cry over it and accept it. 
Just the way it is. Just the way it happened. Just the way I accept it.
We get one life, and we choose what to do with it.
This is what I chose.
And I chose for the last time, to share it, and close this chapter in my life.
For once and for all.
You've been warned.