𝚂𝚕𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚎

hi long time, no see. i've moved to ao3 of starters. i like it better than wattpad for some reason. also if you notice, my wilbur soot books are back up. so yeah, let's talk about that. i tried so very hard to remove him from my life when the allegations came out. i found what i originally thought was his apology to be shit. upon further analysis, i realized it wasn't an apology. it was a statement on his behalf. i think you should know that he was the only constant in my life during my nan's passing. this comes into play on why i couldn't remove him. anyway, i removed my books of him when they came out bc i felt like such a shitty person for supporting someone who abused people. but they're back up because i believe people can change. i'm not saying he's a good person or a saint. i just like him and want to believe he's working to make himself a better person. anyway, thats it. logging off for the final time.

when i see my reflection, i see someone else.
          
          

it literally never gets easier. just sweep it under the rug.

hey besties, it’s been a while! i kinda forgot wattpad exsisted but im back now

hey loserrrrrrr

scooter, you were the best dog i could’ve ever asked for. my stomach hurts and i feel like i can’t breathe. i thought i wouldn’t have to go through this for a few more years but you were taken from me. i know it was an accident the person didn’t mean to hit you but i don’t think ill ever forgive them. i love you scooter and hope you’re resting well.

so fucking stressed

my bf is moaning in his sleep, hope it’s because of me

In the silence of night, where shadows creep,
          A soul is trapped in grief so deep.
          No refuge found in the passing day,
          Just echoes of loss that won't fade away.
          
          Each breath a struggle, each heartbeat a sigh,
          As i search for solace beneath a darkened sky.
          The weight of sorrow, an unbearable load,
          A heavy burden on a weary road.
          
          Memories haunt, like ghosts in the night,
          Tears unshed, hidden from sight.
          No escape from the pain that lingers,
          A constant ache, like piercing fingers.
          
          The world outside moves with carefree grace,
          While i‘m imprisoned in grief's cold embrace.
          No respite from the endless sorrow,
          Just yearning for a brighter tomorrow.
          
          The laughter of others, a bitter reminder,
          Of a joy once felt, now lost in the grinder.
          i long to escape this relentless grief,
          But it clings to me like a thief.
          
          In the stillness of darkness, i silently weep,
          For a heart that's shattered, a soul that's steeped.
          In the depths of despair, i silently plea,
          For a moment of peace, to set me free.

hi, um i want to tell you guys about my dream! (i do not support wilbur i don’t know why he was in my dream)
          
          so one of my school friends and wilbur were getting married and i was a bridesmaid. and i was planning like everything and wasn’t really around her much because of that. me and wilbur had been secretly dating or sum shit and she didn’t know about that but because i was so busy doing everything and waiting for the wedding day i had completely been mia. the day gets here and im at the venue on my horse and they’re coming down the path so i follow suit once they pass and it’s time for the bridesmaids. my friend had replaced me, i was in none of the pictures, and she had banned me from the venue. i sat outside the venue sobbing with my boyfriend beside me, taking my side of things. then i woke up.