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                mega tw! talk of a sewerslide attempt, capital letters, aggression. plus this is a vent post.
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          to the nurse that said my reason for attempting back in October was 'silly': 
          
          
          FUCK YOU, YOU PIECE OF UTTER SHIT
          
          I ATTEMPTED BECAUSE I WAS SCARED I WOULD HAVE TO STOP TALKING TO THE ONLY PERSON THAT GENUINELY CARES FOR ME, FOR US, ON A DEEP LEVEL
          
          HOW COULD YOU SAY THAT TO SOMEONE THAT CALLED UP EMERGENCY SERVICES IN TEARS BECAUSE THEY WERE TERRIFIED OF THEMSELF. TO SOMEONE WHO CALLED THEIR BOYFRIEND AFTER BECAUSE HE'D BEEN HELPING THEM, AND ALL THEY COULD SAY TO HIM WAS I'M SORRY OVER AND OVER
          
          FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU
          
          YOU WERE MEANT TO HELP ME
          
          
          - alucard/darius