@soobmarine
it just dawned on me that it's been 7 years since one of my friends made me download wattpad,,, wow 12 year old me had no business being here
like wdym there was a wall on which we could stalk everyone and see exactly when they left comments or hearts on stuff ️
i remember being so embarrassed when i found out, like "oh noo, everyone can see i'm reading 5sos fics!!"
omg since i dyed my hair pink i've gotten so many compliments, i love how random girls contributed to building my confidence <3
i love ningning sm </3
[mini rant]
whenever i visit their profile i'm filled which such sadness and anger,,, i completely understand leaving fandom culture behind and not being proud of your old stories, but if someone finds comfort in that, why ruin it?
it's feels like such a passive-aggressive goodbye, the author choosing to blame their following and redirecting their feelings on them instead of facing them themselves. i'm sorry but if you feel that way about the fandom, it's your burden to bear, not mine.
and i do understand kpop being a saving grace and someone's damnation, but every fandom, every form of media is.
them trying to act all morally high just doesn't sit right with me. especially when it's done in such a way.
i'm taking my c1 exam today and i'm scared shitless
on the good side, if everything goes right i will be able to go to c1 lessons this july and then take the exam on august which would be amazing because if i have to take it in december i will cry, i'm graduating next year and i don't think i'll be able to pull everything off
pmg i'm so nervous, tomorrow i have a philosophy test and on top of that i will have to do a test at an english school so that they can check my proficiency level,,, which is kinda weird cause my english is immaculate but i still get nervous and say "hi! (sorry for my bad english!)" qjskqke i hate myself
i think in these past two(? months i haven't slept more than 5-6 hours every night which is just so unhealthy cause i definitely need more than that.
on top of that, my stupid philosophy teacher showed us our exams and apparently i got a 9,25 ??? and it's surprising because i've been working my ass off all year round just for him to always give me 5 and then suddenly in this exam (which i half assed btw) i got this.
i kinda feel that after bullying me these months (with him saying he supports and loves russia's past dictators) he feels bad about what's happening in ukraine lmao that's what i call character development
thank you for voting on my story! i am not writing it at the moment but it'll be continued soon<3
@soobmarine oh thank you so much! i have been feeling down when it comes to writing so you saying this truly made my day (or week or month or whatever you wanna call it). thank you for this and i am glad really really you like it!!
@wonderlino ohh love, i hope you're doing good!! i have had it sitting in my library for a while now and since i'm free i decided to read it, it's amazing so far, i love your writing style! <3
this is so sad,,, today i found out that russia declared war against ukraine and there goes my stupid classmate telling me "how can you be so calm when that's happening in your country?"
oh i'm sorry i just found out. i'm sorry i'm not bawling my eyes out for you to see. i'm sorry i'm internalizing my feelings so that i just don't break down in the middle of a freaking biology class. and i know it's not my fault but he just made me feel so ??? idk(? guilty???