They/them

i use another private account just to read stuff (not write/post) nowadays and it always makes me smile when i see some of your usernames in the comments of books from other fandoms. it was the right decision for me to unpublish my books and stop using this account, but i gotta say i do miss y'all a lot. we had a really nice community here and i just wanted to say i'm really grateful for all of you.
          
          and specifically to the person whose comments i read most recently although i'm not naming names cus i don't want people to know my private account: please never stop being absolutely feral and thirsty in the comments section of every story! it makes me laugh so hard thank you so much 

i'm ditching this account. i'm keeping my books up for now but i might change my mind about that. you're still welcome to message me, i'll be logging back in to check notifications periodically. i also need friends (18 or older please) so message me if you're interested. 
          
          thanks y'all. it's been fun.

my cat is acting manic again. like dude we can't both be bipolar. pick your own disorder smh. /s /lh

hi humans!
          
          let's talk about hygiene/body-care accommodations.
          
          first thing: you don't need any sort of diagnosis to give yourself accommodations! if washing your hair in the sink makes it easier for you to have clean hair, do it. if using "kid's" toothpaste means that you can have clean teeth, use it. if you have to drink the most "unhealthy" sugary drink (not talking about alcohol here) you can think of in order to be able to take your medication consistently, drink it.
          
          if it helps you and it makes your life easier, i don't care if you're not disabled or ill or tired or depressed "enough." let yourself find ways to make things easier.
          
          doctors can be super helpful with this stuff too! i recently saw my dentist because i have 3 cavities and i decided to be honest with her about how my autism affects my ability to practice good oral hygiene. i have really good tooth genetics, so pretty much until this year when i turned 21, i was easily getting away with brushing my teeth only maybe once or twice a month. sometimes multiple months. until this year i had only had 3 other cavities in my life and i think 2 were on baby teeth so this hadn't really affected me, but obviously it's starting to catch up with me so i talked to my dentist about it and now i only brush either my top or bottom teeth every day and then floss once a week.
          
          please be kind to yourselves and let you help yourselves. (and if you have any questions about these sorts of accommodations, ask away! i have lots of tips n tricks i've learned over the years)

to all of my followers who are minors:
          
          this post is about nudes
          
          please please please do not keep your nudes on your phone. i don't care if it's in snapchat or in the "hidden" album. they can still be found. in most places in the US it is legally considered to be child pornography to have nude photos of a minor even if it's yourself. you will never get busted for it unless for some reason you are being charged with a crime and the police have a warrant to search your phone and they're trying to tack on listed offenses to your sentence. aside from that, your phone can be hacked. i've also seen it happen to someone at my high school who she let someone she trusted borrow her phone to call someone then a week later the majority of the 1,800 students had seen her nudes.
          
          i also do understand that there are reasons that you might want/need to have your nudes. pre-transition/surgery photos are a common example but also the only way i ate lunch for a while was if i made money selling pics/videos. please store them somewhere safe. i highly recommend the app calculator# for this.
          
          lastly, just a quick message to minors who are trying online dating/relationships:
          
          you are special. you are mature for your age. other people your age don't have the emotional maturity and capacity that you need in a relationship. i know. i believe you. i've been there. the problem is that predators also know this. and they know that you want validation. in fact they're counting on it.
          
          your friends who are 18+ should have clear boundaries with you when it comes to discussing sexual topics. this doesn't necessarily mean that you don't talk about sexual things with them, but if they don't draw any sort of line with you or they push your boundaries, please leave them.
          
          stay safe please

little me really wanted to tell my friend about the "green bug" i saw yesterday. guess what kind of bug little me was referring to?
          
          wrong. it was a chameleon lol

anyone else ever dissociate super heavily then come out of the dissociation and realize you just cooked and ate roughly 30 asparaguses?
          
          no? just me?

FINALLY THE SPOTIFY DJ IS BEING NICE TO ME:
          
          "up next is a vibe that seems right in your zone. and that vibe is LGBTQ+ hip hop."

spotify is bullying me and i can't stop laughing about it. i already posted that the spotify dj keeps calling me out for listening to a lot of depressing music but here's 2 examples of things he said to me from today:
          
          "up next is a vibe. and that vibe is soul crushing. up next is Jessie Murph."
          
          "ok it's time for a vibe. and that vibe is gloomy. starting up with Billie Eilish."
          
          EXCUSE ME?! SOUL CRUSHING?! GLOOMY?!
          
          spotify i thought we were friends 

story idea that i will probably never write but i just thought of it and now i so badly want it to exist:
          
          a character who has OCD and struggles with really persistent and awful intrusive thoughts that make them feel like a bad person because sometimes they get scared that the intrusive thoughts are actually what they want.
          
          meets...
          
          a character who can hear other people's thoughts but because intrusive thoughts are basically a misfiring of certain brainwaves and not actually our own thoughts, they don't hear intrusive thoughts and instead hear the first character arguing in their head with a voice that isn't there.
          
          then they get close and the person who can hear thoughts is able to comfort the person with OCD because they can reassure them that their intrusive thoughts are not their own thoughts and that they're still a good person.
          
          
          
          
          someone please write this for me i need it