starrotinmauve
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Hey everyone,
It’s been forever since I was last here, hasn’t it? First and foremost, I owe each and every one of you an apology. I should probably go down on my knees for leaving you all hanging—not replying to your texts, your questions, or giving you updates when you’ve been so kind and patient. I’m sorry. Truly, deeply sorry. And I feel like it’s time I explain myself.
I’m at fault here. I’ve had time, but I haven’t had the energy to write. Ever since my second year at university began, things have been completely out of control. It’s been the heaviest, fastest-paced time of my life, and honestly, I’ve struggled to keep up. My performance in the first year was nowhere near good enough—barely brushing average.
Looking back, I think I was down, deep down. Depression, or what they call dysthymia now. I didn’t know what I was feeling, when it started, or even how to cope. My first year of uni is mostly a blur—days blending together into a haze of confusion and isolation. Things only started to change when I found a few people I could call friends.
They’ve helped me a lot in opening up—even if just a little. Normally, I’m not great at talking about how I feel. They don’t know everything, because, honestly, I suck at sharing. It feels easier to stay unknown than to let people know every single detail of why you’re the way you are. That kind of vulnerability can feel so raw, so bare—you know?
I had two months of break between my first and second years. I spent the first month trying to accept things. I cried most nights, battling that persistent blue. The second month? I couldn’t even tell you where it went. It’s like it just vanished.
helloitsdidi
@moonsghostie Thanks again for the chapter, I didn't want it to end I look forward to receiving another notification from you!
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starrotinmauve
@helloitsdidi Hello! Thank you for the acceptance and the heartfelt words. It means a lot, all this support despite doing not enough. I hope my stories have entertained you all in my absence. As promised, I've gotten back from everything. It's the 20th of December, 2024 today, and keeping my word, I updated 'Constellations'. I hope you give it a try. Sending love and hugs, XOXO <3
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helloitsdidi
Thank you for trusting us and telling us about yourself and these problems, I'm sorry that all this is happening to you..Obviously we don't know each other at all but through your books and your answers you seem so adorable :( I will think of your friend this evening and wish him a good rest. With all my love I will wait for your updates, take care of yourself author, bye
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Author nim what is your Instagram account name
TheQueenoftinydweaki
Hi @starrotinmauve I just wanted to say I loved the book constellations and I also drew a small sketch of the trinket felix got for hyunjin, the one with the heart and ring
Teddyjia2
Sister I don’t know how old you are but I’m damn sure your from my country and your story I’m currently reading….if it’s truly based on u I can understand you cause I once felt the same but at a lower age than urs
I’ll hipe for ur reply
RCchoices
Hey! I don’t know if you are accepting reading requests or not, but it would be great if you could give my story and chance. Feel free to vote if you enjoy reading it, and do not forget to comment your thoughts and reviews on it. Thank you for your time. I apologise for the inconvenience.
https://www.wattpad.com/story/398291516?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=RCchoices
KOOTAE_THVK7
Hiyaaa
SRagaviSR
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tea_ewgc
helloitsdidi
hello are u okay ?
starrotinmauve
Hey everyone,
It’s been forever since I was last here, hasn’t it? First and foremost, I owe each and every one of you an apology. I should probably go down on my knees for leaving you all hanging—not replying to your texts, your questions, or giving you updates when you’ve been so kind and patient. I’m sorry. Truly, deeply sorry. And I feel like it’s time I explain myself.
I’m at fault here. I’ve had time, but I haven’t had the energy to write. Ever since my second year at university began, things have been completely out of control. It’s been the heaviest, fastest-paced time of my life, and honestly, I’ve struggled to keep up. My performance in the first year was nowhere near good enough—barely brushing average.
Looking back, I think I was down, deep down. Depression, or what they call dysthymia now. I didn’t know what I was feeling, when it started, or even how to cope. My first year of uni is mostly a blur—days blending together into a haze of confusion and isolation. Things only started to change when I found a few people I could call friends.
They’ve helped me a lot in opening up—even if just a little. Normally, I’m not great at talking about how I feel. They don’t know everything, because, honestly, I suck at sharing. It feels easier to stay unknown than to let people know every single detail of why you’re the way you are. That kind of vulnerability can feel so raw, so bare—you know?
I had two months of break between my first and second years. I spent the first month trying to accept things. I cried most nights, battling that persistent blue. The second month? I couldn’t even tell you where it went. It’s like it just vanished.
helloitsdidi
@moonsghostie Thanks again for the chapter, I didn't want it to end I look forward to receiving another notification from you!
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starrotinmauve
@helloitsdidi Hello! Thank you for the acceptance and the heartfelt words. It means a lot, all this support despite doing not enough. I hope my stories have entertained you all in my absence. As promised, I've gotten back from everything. It's the 20th of December, 2024 today, and keeping my word, I updated 'Constellations'. I hope you give it a try. Sending love and hugs, XOXO <3
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helloitsdidi
Thank you for trusting us and telling us about yourself and these problems, I'm sorry that all this is happening to you..Obviously we don't know each other at all but through your books and your answers you seem so adorable :( I will think of your friend this evening and wish him a good rest. With all my love I will wait for your updates, take care of yourself author, bye
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