naweweirdan ako whenever i have to talk abt myself as a writer. i love talking abt writing and the things i write abt. i mean kapag ako na ung subject matter. i dont have this conscious thought of writing to self express as my main agenda or to impart my wisdom or whatever. i just happen to find something interesting (and i think most writers are this way). and i wanna hear ppl talk and think abt it. i feel more connected to the ideas than writing itself. like if i didnt have them, if i didnt get attached to those characters, i wouldnt be writing at all. like how some art often happens to be bigger or a whole separate thing than the "artist", even before me, art na sya, and im just contributing a perspective- and not even necessarily my personal one. i express them, but was able to do so because they already had so much potential substance to play with. i get embarrassed when im the one being complimented, being engaged with, and not the thing or idea that was being told
