S-vet Dela Cruz

You gotta stop hoping for the best.  Because who are we kidding? It'll never come. 

How would you feel?  If i told you i loved you? Lyrics form ed Sheeran's song. But im wondering. How would YOU feel, if i told you i loved you?  Will you feel anxious? Awkward? Will you get mad? I know you should. My feelings are out of place. I mean, from the beginning i already knew we're only friends. Im too stupid to fall for you. I can't even express how im mad at myself. 
          
          Every night i punched my self for feeling this way for you. Every time i feel things for you, i wanted to apologize to you. My feelings are wrong. I am wrong. This is, in any form, wrong. I know. Im sorry. Im really sorry. 
          
          But i cant help it. Every single day i realized how amazing you are. I know this sounds cliche, but the word perfect doesn't even begin to describe how extravagant your whole being is. I never thought i would fall for someone like you. Some might say your simple, but damn. That makes it even more perfect. 
          
          Sometimes i get jealous on how generous and sweet you are to everyone else but then i realized thats one of the things i love about you. You remember even the simplest things. I know im not the only person whom you treat that way but i cant help but to feel special everytime you do something sweet.
          
          Those sweet gestures is one of the most common reason why im deeply in love with you.  Hey. I cant fucking help it. Im in love with you. I love you so fucking much.. This hurts every single day. Every fucking  night i stare at the ceiling. Im falling for you every single day. I can't help but to fall deeply inlove with you. 
          
          
          Again i apologize. For falling for you. Im sorry. But i really love you. I hate this too though. Coz i freaking love you. This is so frustrating. 

Before i met you, i thought love was all fun and games, sweet gestures, love bites, physical touch, longing, kisses, hugs, exchanging i love you's and i miss you's, holding hands, PDA, and a whole lot more. Now, as my age grew and my mind matured, love now have a different meaning. I never thought in my entire fucked up life that i will for someone like you. Some may say you're too boring, quiet and an introvert who doesn't like crowded places. 
          
          I loved you even though i know it's impossible for us to be together.
          I loved you even though you're not my typical type, you broke my boundaries. I thought i could never fall in love with a straight friend but i did. Strangely, with you i want nothing more than friendship even though I'm crazily in love you. After realizing im hella inlove with you, it destroyed me. Every day i keep on punching my heart for even beating for you. You were the least person i want to fall in love with, but unfortunately i did. 
          
          Now, as your friend, i will love you in a way that you can never know. I will love you as a friend but will give you my heart along with my time and effort. I will love you as friend but will definitely beat the hell out of the guy who will break your heart. I will love you unconditionally. No buts, no negative sides. I will love you without expecting any love in return. This is the most i can offer. This love is like a fire that will never cease. As cliche as it sounds, you are a star in my life. I will always want to see you at the end of the day, but as much as i want to hold you, i cant. You're a star that is only meant for gazing but never for holding. You're the only star i wanna witness forever. But as much as i want you in my palms, it can never be. For i will never be able to reach you. 

I want to fall in love with a writer. They know soooo many things on how to be effin romantic. I'd probably be head over heels over them. 

I don't know why i cant sleep. Maybe the thought of you in my mind is too much for me. Your words hit my soul where it hasn't been hit before. Your words are like rain, pouring over my existence. I want to know where on earth did you get those words? I wanna know more about you. I clearly know for a fact that you are more than those stories you've told. 

hi isvet!!
          

helLo !
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