I know it might seem pointless because you think no one reads your work, but don't stop writing! I think you have a lot of potential, your poetry sounds a lot like mine did back when I was still starting out as a writer and I can definitely see that you have what it takes to improve! You've got a good skill baseline and a nice narrative tone of voice, plus your writing has this rawness to it that has a lot of heart. I've been writing my whole life but I never felt good enough to call myself a writer until I was about 19 tbh, but I kept at it with the practicing and now I'm finally at a place where I can feel proud of my work at 22.
Don't get me wrong, I think your current work is something to be proud of - and even though I'm a stranger on the internet, I'm proud of you for having the guts to share bc I know it ain't easy to!
Looking forward to more updates and seeing how you grow as a writer ^_^