takemebackto_apollo

i'm actually going to cry, so i tried to an eyebrow slit and i messed it up a little bit and my grandma finally noticed and then lectured me about how i can't do anything i want with my body, like i can't even dye my hair unless it's a natural color, like all i wanted to do was try something different especially with all the stress i've been under with constantly going to the doctor and getting tests to get a diagnosis, and now theres a lump in my arm pit and i just wanted to try something new to make me happy but apparently i can't 
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takemebackto_apollo

i'm actually going to cry, so i tried to an eyebrow slit and i messed it up a little bit and my grandma finally noticed and then lectured me about how i can't do anything i want with my body, like i can't even dye my hair unless it's a natural color, like all i wanted to do was try something different especially with all the stress i've been under with constantly going to the doctor and getting tests to get a diagnosis, and now theres a lump in my arm pit and i just wanted to try something new to make me happy but apparently i can't 
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takemebackto_apollo

a little rant because i see this on Tiktok especially with people whos been through ab#se that traumatized them: so i was scrolling on Tiktok and this one girl who went through horrible ab#se was talking about a new video she posted, and so many people were saying "she's dragging it" "she won her case she needs to stop dragging it" and that honestly made me irritated, as someone who goes through ab#se and has literally been ab#sed my life, i've been through SA, physical ab#se, mental ab#se, emotional ab#se, and still gets ab#sed i'm going to talk about it why?? because I can and because that stuff traumatized me, and it makes me do things a whole lot different because of it, and me sharing my stories when i do decide to share them can help other people, and what also frustrates me is i feel like you mostly see that with women creators and or feminine presenting people 
          
          
          
          (i might delete this later i don't know yet)

takemebackto_apollo

@starsofthemorning *hugs back* they are, like the amount of people she's helping who are in a similar situation, my favorite comments are the ones that clap back at those comments as it's good to see people sticking up for victims 
            
            
            
            
            and yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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-_El1zabeth_Aft0n_-

Hi love, I really hope ur okay, ilysm and if you need to talk with me I’m here for you me and starlis love you so so much

-_El1zabeth_Aft0n_-

@starsofthemorning awww, you are so adorable and sweet hunnn!
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takemebackto_apollo

sorry for being gone so much I'm still trying to get a diagnosis for my fainting but here's a little update: i'm questioning my religion

takemebackto_apollo

@starsofthemorning i have been and tiktoks i see about the religion really help a lot but don't worry love i'll make sure it makes me comfortable ^_^ awwwwwwwwww love that's so sweet ^_^ <333333
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starsofthemorning

@takemebackto_apollo Do your research and do what makes you comfortable ^^ If you want, I can help :)
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takemebackto_apollo

@starsofthemorning so as you know i'm interested in greek mythology and the greek gods so i've been having that pop up on my Tiktok fyp and so i've been questioning if i should try out that religion, or stay with the one i have, or possibly merge the current religion with this religion if that's possible
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takemebackto_apollo

i just hope i can get through this month

Sunnyshinesans

Urgent question 
          
          Have you heard from @starsofthemorning ?
          
          
          Or even see them online anywhere?
          
          
          Even if they don’t chat
          
          
          I need to know if they’re still alive TWT

takemebackto_apollo

@Sunnyshinesans good i'm glad your not, but of course that's what friends are for, and me to ^_^
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Sunnyshinesans

@takemebackto_apollo I won’t, i appreciate you being here, I’m glad their okay :3
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takemebackto_apollo

................... i want to be strong...................
          
          
          
          ....................... but i don't think i can be anymore.................
          
          
          
          
          
          ................................ with being possible chronically ill, the stress of constantly going to the doctor, my grandma just adding onto that stress by being her therapist and her randomly jumping on me for nothing, i just don't know anymore.......................   
          
          
          ..................... the stars and the moon look beautiful tonight..........................

takemebackto_apollo

@JessKnitz ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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takemebackto_apollo

@sukimusakura *hugs back* thank you <33333333
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AngelV0icedDem0n

@takemebackto_apollo I can still feel bad even if its not my fault
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