I woke up from the same dream
Falling backwards, falling backwards
'Til it turned me inside out
Now I live a waking life
Of looking backwards, looking backwards
A model citizen of doubt
Until one day I had enough
Of this exercise of trust
I leaned in and let it hurt
And let my body feel the dirt
When I break pattern, I break ground
I rebuild when I break down
I wake up more awake than I've ever been before
Still I'm pinned under the weight
Of what I believed would keep me safe
Show me where my armor ends
Show me where my skin begins
Like a final puzzle piece
It all makes perfect sense to me
The heaviness that I hold in my heart belongs to gravity
The heaviness that I hold in my heart's been crushing me
I've been worried all my life
A nervous wreck most of the time
I've always been afraid of heights
Of falling backwards, falling backwards
- sleeping at last Ryan o' neil
