@thesonsofnight
Put yourself first, sugar. While I'm not gonna say this is the best fit for you, in doing more Pagan research, I learned that putting those around me first too much was doing nothing but tearing me down and wearing me out. In this case, Pagan or no, I'd rather see you put yourself first so you're healthy, 'cuz I'm pretty sure it's gonna be pretty hard to write much of anything from a padded cell or the other side... LOL!
Don't hesitate to PM me if need be. Even if I don't respond right off the bat, I'd rather you do that than not, if you ever need someone to talk to.
~Banshee