Well, I don't even know you but still I don't like people dying. Remember that there is always a Plan B. Surely, something good will happen in your life. When God takes something, it also gives something. Nothing is impossible. People say that after so many lives as animals, we finally become a human and you are wasting it away? If you commit suicide then you are declaring it aloud that you are weak and can't deal with life. Please, I understand that you are slowly getting crushed and your world is collapsing but just don't do it.