i don't know what to even do with myself anymore. there is this guy and i met him when i was in 3rd grade. the second i laid eyes on him i loved him. once 3rd grade was over i had to move schools and i would always see him around and every time i would fall for him even more over the years. last year he transferred to the school i had moved to for eighth grade and i was so happy with him there. he's never liked me back and it hurts to even think about that. he told everyone he was going to the same high school that i was, turns out it was a big lie and he actually got a variance to go to a different school. i found that out yesterday and immediately broke into tears. over the years i changed every single thing about myself over and over again so that maybe he would like me some day. it never worked. now i'm just a basic attention seeking girl who feels like she has no purpose. i have no idea on what to do. i know this sounds ridiculous and dramatic but there was something about him that i don't think i'll ever be able to let go.