Depressed. What does it mean by depressed? Is it because of anxiety? Or fear of losing. I feel both now.
I feel anxious with my surroundings. With people at work, with my own friends. I fear about what they actually think about me. I feel fear of losing, losing my own self. Now, I don't feel joy in whatever I do. I laugh, but when I am alone, like right now, the sadness overwhelms. I try to play games, listening to music, watching movie,reading countless fanfic here and do whatever I think is happy but it means almost nothing when night comes or when I am alone.
Is this depression? I want to consult to some counselor, but I don't how or where to find one.
This might be rambling, because this is the first time ever I posted something and I talk about depression. I'm sorry, but I just don't know where to channel 'this feeling' anymore...I'm sorry