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...   forget  it.    i  dont  expect  you  to  understand.    you  never  had  to  work  extra  hard  just  because  of  your  height.   other  things,   sure.    but  never  because  of  your  height.

@fifthkings 
            
            i  do  not  understand  why  you  would  dislike  it  ..?  guoshi  had  told  me  once  not  to  underestimate  those  just  because  they  are  shorter  than  i  am,   after  you  had  beaten  me  in  our  spar.  your  height  is  not  a  bad  thing?

quit  it.    just  ───     quit.    do  you  know  what  its  like  to  begin  to  hate  your  body  because  of  the  words  of  one  man.     (..)   stop.   calling  me.    small.

shorter  doesnt  necessarily  mean  weaker,   yīn  shuǐ.   keep  that  in  mind.    (..)       mhm.     keep  in  mind  i  wont  be  the  easiest  teacher.    are  you  sure  this  is  what  you  want?

@xianled 
            
            shorter..   and  he  still  managed  to  make  me  stumble.  teach  me,  please,   guoshi.  i  want  to  learn  how  to..  defend  myself  properly.

if  you  plant  your  feet  firmly,   people  will  have  a  harder  time  shoving  you  around.      mohan  is  right,   no  doubt  he's  had  to  do  something  similar  due  to  being  shorter.

i  mean..  she's  having  our  friends  child,   so  you  could  at  least  try?     pfft..   did  you  know  they're  looking  into  buying  a  house?    a-qiu  is  so  smitten  with  him..

@fifthkings 
            
            mph..   ///.   is  this  meant  to  sweeten  my  opinion  of  her  ?  i  promised  qianqiu  i  would  be  nice  to  him,  but  i  did  not  promise  a  /  truce  /.

..?    you  mean  his  girlfriend?    (..)     yin  shui,    my  love—!    he's  not  that  bad.   a  little  crass,   but  he's  not..   that  bad.    also..    she's  pregnant.   so  be  nicer!

i  dont  think  anything  gets  past  the  guoshi's  notice.   like..    i  /tried/,    and  all  he  did  was  make  me  this  bitter  tea  and  tell  me  to  drink  and  take  it  easy.

@fifthkings 
            
            he  knows  ?  it  is  not  surprising  that  guoshi  has  never  made  you  run  laps  then,  i  did  not  think  about  that.

really,    it's  his  fault.   everytime  the  guoshi  makes  him  writes  lines,    he  complains  he'd  rather  run  laps.    (..)    haha.   dont  worry.   guoshi  fang  xin  never  makes  me  run  laps.

hehe!     thank  youu  shuǐ'er!     mwah.

@fifthkings 
            
            you!-     -/////!   fine,    i  have  a  few.  what  a  child,  take  them.  

so..   my  god  has  no  candies  to  offer  this  poor  ghost?    oh  woe!    im  going  to  die  again...  :(

@taihuas 
            
            shut  up  !  do  you-   really  have  any  idea  what  it  is  like  to  fear  someone  is  just  /  using  /  you  ?  playing  with  your  heart,  just  to  toss  you  to  the  side  ?  you  have  no  idea  because  you  were  born  /  normal  /  !  i  was  so  afraid,  back  then.  i  knew  mohan  would  never  do  that,  but  the  nagging  feeling  would  not  go  away.  i  realised..   perhaps  he  was  not  teasing  me.  far  too  late.  
            [   the  god  of  tranquilities  bottom  lip  quivers,  but  his  eyes  show  everything.  oceans  that  clash  with  violent  waves.  ]  ..  i  will.  i  promised  him  i  would.
            

are  you  ..    are  you  /serious/?!     mohan  loved  you.   i  dont  think  ive  ever  seen  someone  put  that  much  effort  into  trying  to  prove  themselves,   and  you-   (   he  grits  his  teeth,   his  fist  hitting  the  wall—   the  wall  cracking.   )     fix  it.     i  dont  care  how,     but  /fix/  it.   mohan  was  one  of  my  closest  friends,     do  you  have  any  idea  how  much  it  hurts  seeing  him  like  this.

@taihuas 
            
            ..   he  had  admitted  feelings  for  me,  but  i  was  afraid,    so  i  told  him  he  could  not  possibly  love  me.  that  he  /  did  not  /  love  me.  you  do  not  need  to  remind  me  how  awful  those  words  are.  i  was  just..  different,  and  another  had  broken  what  was  left  of  my  own  heart  because  of  it.  i  did  not  wish  to  harm  him—   i  didn’t-

mohan  stands  up,   quiet.    a  hand  unconsciously  messing  with  the  red  ribbon  tying  his  hair  in  a  ponytail.    it  comes  undone,   and  mohan  blinks.    "...   ah.   sorry.  "     he  mumbles  it  quietly,   but  it  sounds  so  unlike  mohan.    dead  eyes  glance  over  at  the  taller,   head  tilting  to  the  side  ever  so  slightly. 

@fifthkings 
            
            his  world  begins  to  spin  at  the  sight  of  mohan,   what  has  become  of  him  ..it  makes  yīn  shuǐ  nauseous,  because  he  knows  the  cause.  knows  that  he  did  this.  that  the  fragile  person  he  is  made  this  happen,  all  because  he  was  /  afraid  /.  “  ..   no—      no,   i  do  not..  need  anything  !  i  don’t-   ”   teeth  grit  together,  looking  rather  terrified.  it’s  an  unusual  look  on  his  face,   given  how  /  he  /  hurt  mohan.  perhaps  it’s  due  to  that  reason,  that  he  really  isn’t  prepared  for  sudden  interactions  like  this.  

@fifthkings 
            
            you  would  not  remember,  it  is  only  natural.  regardless..  you  should  not  worry  about  it,  but  you  should  know  that  i  am  fond  of  it.  

...?   but  i  dont  remember  telling  you  the  meaning  of  my  swords  name  before?

@fifthkings 
            
            not  regular,  something  more.  ha  ..  ///   i  know  what  it  means.  i  learnt  it  a  long  time  ago. 

mhm..   i  do  have  that  warmth.   even  if  it  took  my  heart  breaking  several  times  to  get  it.

@fifthkings 
            
            they  should  not  have  been  threatened  by  death  in  the  first  place.  ..  is  that  enough  for  you  ?  can  you  feel  the  warmth  of  another  ?  will  you  ever  have  that  ?

i  was  saving  others  in  lang  qianqiu's  absence,   i  didn't  need  to  be  saved.    a  bodyguard  is  supposed  to  protect,   and  i  saved..   so  many  that  it  was  worth  it.   (..)     i  can  run  as  much  as  i  want  without  my  body  collapsing.   how  is  it  not  easier?

@fifthkings 
            
            you-   !   just  ..sit  it  somewhere  and  get  out  !  give  me  a  minute  —///!