trans-sunflowrs

tryna find things to upd with is a strugggggggle..
          
          anywayysss
          ive been trying to make a shrine for apollo, but struggling as of late bc my partner's over and i cant go to the stores, im still struggling to get a job, and ive been lowkey getting into witchy stuff but again, hard to get into for me lol.

more updatessss
          ive started to journal again, my dad's vagueeely set me up with talking to father michael at his nursing home (they have a church inside) because we share a name and he finds it funny (im still not religious, but i like theology and the history of beliefs), im like. hella depressed again, ive started to watch unstable universe (wemmbu pov), and im still unemployed.

yk. tempted to start some sort of series.
          like
          ocs or some shit
          dunno.
          im just.. wanted to make stuff with my ocs.
          i want to make a game but i cant code for shit and that kinda stuffs

getting 0 emails back from jobs i apply to SUCKS

lowkey pisses me off how people are calling wattpad refugees on ao3 the problem when neither side is wrong its a lack of communication

so uhm
          autism go brrr or something whats the terms here anymore that feels like old me syaing idk.
          
          uhh
          
          lowkey ya boy..
          is playing forsaken rn with a moderator by accident sparkles

yk i like coming on here to give life updates but its like..
          how do i. explain like.. anything </3
          
          anyways ya boi is probably a system with like no communication because half of my system friends realized. that i am (sparkles emoji) so like?? idfk anymore man.. 
          
          oh also i got bpd which is like. not fun do not recommend

trying to sit here and jobhunt but nope
          gotta hear the goddamn family drama
          i do NAWT care that my uncle blocked you mom!
          no offense to you but you guys ALL fucking suck
          you included
          so like.. deserved??
          also you might not be blocked his fucking phone might be OFF because hes AT A FUNERAL

more on the mom weirdness;
          she used. they/them for me. to my baby sister.
          im just,
          damn im an adult now with autonomy to her ig??? 
          what the hell

yall
          my fucking mom
          is making me make youtube shorts to learn the algorithm so SHE can make gardening content
          god i wish i was making this upp..
          fym i fix my relationship with her and now this is what i do as a hobby </3