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He fell first. She knows as he confessed. 
          
          He gave mixed signals and feelings. She was confused but she waited.
          
          She waited. But he kept on manipulating his personality, trying to make her hate 
          him and distanced himself from her because he thought she was way too good for him. 
          
          She still waited. Wait for a genuine action because all she needs who he really is, 
          not what he has. Not until he told her to forget everything. It is, indeed, too early. 
          
          She is a determined person. To her, resetting isn't hard as he makes her see like 
          nothing is working on them, so she decided to leave. 
          
          For now, only Allah knows the best for both of them.

When can I sit 
          with people who tell me 
          the real meaning of happiness? 
          
          When can I walk 
          with the people 
          who will guide me to the right path?
          
          When can I stay 
          with people who 
          won’t force me 
          to change my behaviour
          for the sake 
          of matching their energy
          
          When can I see 
          an action of someone 
          which is sure about me, 
          and allows the confidence, 
          the trust, the bubbly in me, to return? 
          
          When can I hear 
          someone tell me, 
          “Stop getting too used to it” 
          and ask, 
          “Are you sure you’re able to bear with this?” 
          and say, 
          “Please tell me. Don’t proceed with hiding and remain silent.” 
          
          When can I have someone 
          who proves the real meaning of human beings? 
          Which proves to me, 
          being kind will never be a mistake
          So that,
          meeting people will never be the biggest regret. 
          
          I am questioning a lot, yes?

dan ia semakin tenggelam,
          tusukan yang kian dalam,
          sesak dengan keralatan,
          berdentum setiap rontaan,
          namun yang bergema
          hanyalah kebisuan.
          
          dianggap bagai permata,
          diremuk umpama sehelai kertas cuma,
          kita lakar seronok ilustrasi,
          sambil-sambil tawa kita bersimfoni,
          kita semat sebagai terapi,
          indahnya sehingga selewat mimpi,
          lenyap diselimuti ngeri. 

Secubanya mengutarakan rasa,
          Namun tiada siapa tadahkan deria,
          Terbiar bungkam pada suara, 
          Sehinggalah di ketika mana,
          Terbiar ronta hati menghambat segala,
          dalam diam-diamnya, hancur.
          
          Aku terlihat hidup pada zahirnya,
          Namun jiwa aku mati dek derita yang ditanggung tanpa adanya ruang bicara.

It’s okay :)

Whatever we face now, He designed specially for us in charge of changing ourselves to be a better version in life. 
          
          He tested a test that you can handle. He believes you can overcome whatever hardship that is thrown your way. 
          
          Your wishlist hasn’t been completed yet. Appreciate the little things in life. You’ll see, there’s so many reasons why you have to keep alive and survive.

jiwa aku serabut,
          terbuai aku hingga hanyut.

YOU spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.
          
          — Looking For Alaska

"If it doesn't challenging you, it doesn't change you." - A

 “…Sebuah kata yang engkau ucapkan bisa menjadikannya menjauh darimu sejauh bintang di langit, dan dengan sebuah kata yang engkau ucapkan bisa menjadikannya dekat hingga di sisimu.”