@unfortunate-souls hey! we don't really talk much, but hi, i'm someone who cares about you. i don't have much experience with the exact situation you've described, but i'll try. though your mom had her reasons to disagree she certainly did not have the right to hurt you nor stop you from being yourself. honestly you have every right to let authorities know about it if you can especially if she hurts you again. you don't deserve it and your mom should really understand that despite your/her religion you lead your own life and it's not her place to make decisions like that for you. in the meantime just feel free to just rant about it to anyone, because people would be happy to help you. i find just gushing out my feelings completely to someone really helps. i tend to find an activity to do that just empties my brain. for me, it's music. i just sit in the middle of the floor and stare at the wall and have music blasting through my headphones, and i just sit and think of and do nothing for a few hours. another suggestion is try the opposite - something that concentrates you. generally not something that could also make you frustrated, like drawing, but something more simple like reading. repetition can also help. absolutely anything usually works for this, just find what suits you best. cutting strips of paper, picking locks, untying/tying knots, even just organizing things like books in color-coordinated order. find an activity that will calm you, something to help you avoid your thoughts for a while. get some rest, or you can just sit awake all night and stare at a wall. whatever makes you comfortable. drink water, eat, stay alive. know that people care about you and however insignificant these words seem from some person on the internet, you're worth it. settle your thoughts, calm for a while, and you'll find a way to sort things out. take things at your own pace, and you'll find a way to sort everything out. if you ever want to talk, i'd be happy to help you. ^^