My scars are multiplying by the minute. I don't like living but I do it for someone I care for. 

I'm a girl who isnt really understood. I hide who I am and try to stay quiet so I don't bother people.  I used to be loud and really loving but all has changed. Im fighting for my life. It's like I'm in my own personal battle.

If the sun was god I'd be covered in faith. 
If the ocean was the devil I'd be covered in hate.  
 
I just want to learn to feel and love again. I'm tired of being numb and empty to everything. 

But for now may I be damned to this place.  Lost in wonderland, higher than life itself. Bleeding from my arms to my ankles,  letting my tears mix with my blood.  May I be forgiven when I really awake. May I find my way back home again.  May I find myself as who I am yet again.