@vermolon
finally found it within my heart to go and hunt. ill come back on the 17th
I have no remorse for those who fake the disorder that has devastated me and my boyfriend since the very moment it formed.
me talking about it is healing. im not gonna stop till i am healed. my voice will not fall on deaf ears, i am a victim of abuse.
theres one thing i can actually thank my ex for and its for showing me ponytown. i became a regular player and one day i was afking with a hollywood undead pony i was about to hop off till somebody saw me and actually whispered to me talking baout it and then we talked for a bit n then i get introduced to his homeboy who was in the psych ward for 2 weeks and when he came out he uhhhhhhhhh literally imeddiately became my bf
blaring goreshit max volume and being drunk is an ethereal feeling and you cannot convince me otherwise
it is so nice to be at my own pace. so nice not having to change "fixations" every single month becuase my ex would like them. honest to god ill never stop talking about this because abuse is often overlooked and i want to make not only myself and others feel seen and be heared. it is so nice to be free
Neon White OST I'm listening to "focus" is too catchy
it's funny to think that my ex only ever used wattpad to make out private arguments public, to stalk my profile and gush about me at the same time. now its a wasteland since I've removed every reply and posted a thing telling him to get rid of the lovebombing he used on me. awkwardddd. anyway my real boyfriend could never
wanna know something even MORE damning? he said he faked DID in 2020. he also said that he had known about his DID for a while and just hid it. which is literally impossible you cannot mask your DID to yourself after figuring it out. and even if he were to, where were all the debilitating headaches??? the disassociation that makes you lose track of surrounding and time??? the memory loss, the change of identity, vocab, etc... all of that was missing.
@/Funnymaaan whats even more damning is that he posted on there so often but not once is there any change with his vocab or writing style. there never was. there never was a sign of DID. i always showed signs of change and disassociation but apparently that didn't matter because i didn't have fun quirky alters like his and of course only HE matters. fuck you, DID fakers. my problems aren't to be glorified.
I wonder where all the mouthwashing alters will go as soon as the game falls out of popularity
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according to my mother which ive never had a really good relationship with (entirely my fault) told me not too long ago that after i started dating my current boyfriend, i became nicer. i used to be a lot more hostile and aggressive before him, apparently. man
last post of the day anyone else actively avoid a piece of media because they know theyll go looney when they actually see or listen to it?? this is how I am with "to her taste" by lorene drive and aron erlichman if i see or listen to those ill GO INSANE danny oh god the man you are i want your vocal chords preserved in the british museum