Guys, I’m so sorry. The past two months were already hard for me, but I never imagined that January would turn out even worse. I really wanted to write again, and I actually managed to start a few days ago.
But yesterday, I went to visit a close friend in the hospital… and she passed away.
I still can’t fully process it. I’m still in denial.
I’ve known her since kindergarten. We were classmates from then all the way until 10th grade, so we didn’t just grow up alongside each other, we grew up together. She was part of my childhood, my teenage years, my normal. Our lives were so intertwined that it feels wrong, almost impossible, to imagine a world where she doesn’t exist anymore.
Our moms were friends too, which makes it hurt even more. She wasn’t just someone I knew from school, she was part of our lives, part of our families. Losing her feels like losing a piece of my past.
I’ve had headaches for two days straight now from crying so much. Everything feels heavy and unreal, and I don’t know how to move forward yet. I just needed to say this and let it out.
I promise I will finish the story. I just need a few days to get myself together. I hope some of you are still here by the time I reach the end. Please give me a little time, I’ll start writing again soon.