lil_sads_girl

What is this new Wattpad logo/ layout!? I'm kind of in love?

H-hewwo... wiw me Is backs... But is weawwy weawwy sads... I fews wike cwyings... *Sniffle* wan Huggies an oo be aken cawes ofs... *Cries*

My sister just comented on my scars.... 
          
          "You're skinny" -sis
          "Hah where" - me
          "There on your thigh. Your scratches." -sis
          "Okay. Thats enough. Get out" -me
          She is only 5... But she notices these things... I have to remember that. She doesnt know what they are but it hurts to know in just a couple years she will start asking questions putting two and two together. I dont want her to know her sister is strugling...
          This convorsation didnt make any sense but it made me upset.

PLEASE! THIS IS AN EMERGENCY! if ANYONE has had contact with niki in the past hour, tell me IMEDIATELY. Please... She can't be gone... She can't be...

Okay LISTEN! ITS 3:00 IN THE FRIKKITY FRACKING MORNING AND I HAVE SCHOOL TOMMORROW! (but technically today because technically it is tommorow... *has existential crisis* why do i do this to myself *cries*

Im sorry guys but i wont be responding to anyone for a while... Something happened and it hurts so bad... I cant be strong for anyone right now... Im sorry...

It's taking everything i have to not kill myself right now...

So... Probably gonna cut again tonight... I just dont even care anymore. Its not like anyone cares about me or even likes me so... I dont understand why i cant just fucking kill myself...

Sooooo hah funny story. I kind of relapsed and cut again last night..... And its really bad.... Im sorry..... I failed everyone....

Okay my door just opened cause it is jank and scared the absolute shit out of me okay. Sorry please continure with your night.