All Glory to God
There is a God. He loves you. You have a purpose. He wants to be close to you. He is slow to anger. He is forgiving. We all fall short of the glory of God. His son, the Christ died for our sins that we may live. There is hope.
If you have no biblical background, this is really confusing. Genesis explains the beginning of all things. Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John are the gospels. The word Gospel means "good news".  These are all books of the Bible.
The website biblegateway.com has many languages and translations of the Holy Bible available for free. If you feel so inclined to do so, check it out. There is true freedom within the word of God and his deliverance.