I hope you're feeling good now author, if not, healthy at least. I only read about your recent heartache this morning, I know the pain of betrayal hurts more than the word hurt itself, but cheaters don't deserve a shed of your tear. Cry if you must, but not for them, cry to grieve the time of your life you've spent with them, cry to release the stress. The more you try to feel the pain the easier it gets to heals, this is me speaking from experience hehe. Again, i hope you're doing good.