thank you for the question. here are my answers to what you asked.
1. no, it isn’t easy to forgive people who have hurt us deeply. most of the time, you shouldn’t even try to forgive them. if someone has genuinely and unknowingly caused you pain, then maybe you can consider forgiveness. but always remember the amount of damage they have done. everyone knows their actions, and people are usually aware when they hurt someone. it sounds nice in books when they say forgiveness brings peace, but in real life it is extremely difficult. yes, peace may come with forgiveness, but a person has to be truly strong to forgive someone who caused real pain. you may choose to forgive but never forget. and forgiveness never means allowing them back into your life. never take back someone who has hurt you badly. also, there are many people who literally have a doormat syndrome, and it is never okay. people should work on themselves and grow some self respect. they should understand their own worth. nobody has the right to exploit or humiliate you. you should always choose self respect over everything.
2. i write about abusive male leads and submissive female leads because that is simply my guilty pleasure. it has nothing to do with my real life. i have a strong sense of self respect, and i do not hesitate to cut off people who insult or belittle me. i believe everyone should know their self worth. my stories are purely fictional. there are many girls like me who enjoy such dynamics in fiction but do not support these things in reality. in short, i write these stories because i feel like writing them, not because they reflect my real life.