— angelface

disgusted by what’s come out in recent light. so disappointed and so upset that i ever looked up to him and found so much comfort in his content. i do not support him 

the way things have changed so much makes me genuinely sick i need late 2020 back and i need it now

i miss the dream smp so much

so many tears in the past few days. i miss technoblade 
          feeling so much grief man. he was taken far too soon. his videos are so comforting but at the same time it hurts to see them. when they were uploaded we just didn’t know how good we had it

rest easy techno 

wow lol tubbo finally ended his subathon  
          good on him honestly he streamed for like nine days straight but i was so worried the whole time JSJFJGGA
          now i guess we wait for july 23rd :0 

i got my third dose of the covid-19 vaccine yesterday and i’ve been so sick. i reacted this way from the second dose too though.
          
          the worst part is being sick and also being depressed :/ feeling like everyone hates me, even my best friends 

if anyone was wondering why im not that active anymore its bc i forced myself to stop liking the dream smp because i didnt wanna be bullied or judged for liking it bc it’s ‘problematic’ :/ but im still so hyperfixated on it after so many months so i dont rlly know what to do. like my friends that used to be into it arent anymore so i also feel like im annoying when i infodump or talk about it. its made me feel very insecure. it really upsets me when someone makes fun of/judges me for my hyperfixations or special interests. so yeah. im trying to work on it i guess :// 

guys big anxiety rn. the smallest little things are gonna make me cry rn lol. i was thinking of listening to the matilda musical soundtrack again bc i miss being in the musical my old school did but i just know it’s gonna make me bawl my eyes out . help. also just cant think about anything rn bc my mind keeps going back to the thoughts that im trying NOT to think about rn. ughhhhhgufkcfuc

sorry its been a while lol