xxbrokenrecordsxx

Merry Christmas & Happy Holidays!
          	
          	Wishing you all the peace, joy and love that this holiday season brings! ❤️

xxbrokenrecordsxx

NEW 'BRUTE' CHAPTER DROPPED!!
          
          It only took me 2 months... 
          
          My depression got a lot worse before it started to get better, and I'm now finding my feet as I bounce back. I've been doing counselling, and I've been making some practical changes to help in other areas of my life... it's not perfect but it's progress. 
          
          I truly did expect Bear to be my last story, but I'm also realizing I partly made that decision because I was depressed. I think it was also because the transition from "writing is going to be my full time job 1000% one day" to realising I feel a deeper purpose and calling doing something completely different has been really humbling and in some ways terrifying. 
          
          I'm slowly starting to accept that writing is different now for me, and that I no longer have the same space, time or energy for it like I could afford to give to it before, and that's okay. 
          
          I'll eventually find something that works for me, but telling stories is something that brings me joy, and I don't want to give that up. 
          
          I appreciate you all who have supportive and patient, Thank you so much!
          
          Anywhoo, happy reading! I was definitely grinning and kicking feet writing this one ;)
          
          Love you all,
          Bernie 

liamwh

I hope u will be releasing more Soul Reapers MC stories 

xxbrokenrecordsxx

@liamwh I would genuinely love to! Writing stories doesn't have as big a place in my life that it once used to, but I still like to sit down and pen a few lines when I can so I don't want to promise a full series when I'm not sure I could really manage it. BUT my brain has already come up with a number of stories and characters for the Soul Reaper men.
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I've finally managed to take out 95% of the smut from my stories, there may be a few bits and pieces that I've missed so I'll be spending the next week or so reading all my stories just to make sure I've not missed anything! 
          
          I've kind of been focused on this more than writing at the moment because I finally have time to sit down and get it done because it's a hefty job. I'm on vacation, so I should have time to get it done AND do some writing! Thanks for hanging tight with me through all of these changes, I really appreciate you all!! :)

Whatitshouldvebeen

@xxbrokenrecordsxx interesting perspective! When I started writing on wattpad, I didn't really read anyone else's things as much so I suppose I was insulated from the expectation but I am glad you are sticking to your values rather than ferling pressured! ❤️ ty for the thoughtful answer
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@Whatitshouldvebeen I've personally changed a lot in last couple of years, especially in terms of my faith and values, so that kind of content just doesn't match who I am or what I believe. I think that I only really included smut because I knew that was what was the norm on Wattpad, and there's this unspoken pressure that it almost feels like it's expected and I don't want that to be the reason that it's in there. I don't want to write it, I don't like writing it, and I don't think it adds anything for me as a writer or for my stories to include that kind of content. This is not a condemnation on anyone who chooses to write or read shut, but it's just not for me. :) 
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Whatitshouldvebeen

@xxbrokenrecordsxx why did you take out the smut, out of curiosity?
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xxbrokenrecordsxx

So apparently I had a post that was taken down by Wattpad that was flagged as "Harassment/bullying", there's no way for me to see which post they are talking about.
          
          I'm just a little confused because I haven't actually commented or posted anything in a really long time, and I also want to believe I've NEVER been rude or harsh in any of the posts that I've made? 
          
          I don't l'm just very confused and a little perturbed... I was working on the next chapter of Brute but this has kind of thrown me off. :/

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@Lunalisa79 Yeah I figure that's the case, it's just kind of annoying. I feel like I've been slowly phasing away from wattpad but I'm still here because I don't entirely love inkitt either so it just sucks. :/
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Lunalisa79

@ xxbrokenrecordsxx  I'm sorry that happened to you. They probably use AI to scan posts and can't see the context. 
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xxbrokenrecordsxx

The FINAL chapter of Bear, has just been uploaded!! 
          And with that I have a very bittersweet update... Now that Bear has officially ended, I'll be on Hiatus. Honestly I don't know if I'll be back.
          
          I simply don't have time to write as it stands, and my life is going in a different direction now and I don't know where I'll end up. 
          
          It makes me sad. I remember thinking that I would never outgrow writing, that this is what I wanted to do for my whole life but it's just not where my life is headed.
          
          Bear started off as a low stakes project so that I could rekindle my love for writing, and it definitely did, when I actually had time to write! It was a step into something completely different with low expectations. I never expected it to receive the level of support and intrigue that it has. 
          
          As I got wrapped up in the characters and the world, I started to hope that maybe this would be the start of a series. I had even started to brainstorm a book for Brute and Jugs, and some of the other guys. I would have loved to see where their stories ended up. I don't want to throw away the idea completely, but realistically the likelihood of them being completed feel very far off to me right now. 
          
          For those of you who have stuck with me, a HUGE thank you! I am, and always remain forever grateful for all of your support. 15 year old me when I started out on here had big crazy dreams but nearly 10 years later I can say that none of that holds a candle to the encouragement, kindness and warmth that I've received from you all.
          
          Especially those of you who were here since I started with Belle's Beast. Yes, I know your usernames by now... I know who you guys are and every single time I see y'all in my notifications I am FLOORED that you guys are still here!
          
          I've hit some real milestones here on Wattpad that I never dreamed possible, and it is all thanks to you... All I know, is that if this really was my last story, then I feel I'd be honoured to end my Wattpad journey here.

xxbrokenrecordsxx

@lyandaespadas Thank you so much! This means so much especially from you who I know that you've been around since my Belles Beast days ❤️❤️❤️
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lyandaespadas

@xxbrokenrecordsxx A book on Zeva and Brute really does sound interesting especially from the little snippet we got and I will happily wait for that if it ever happens. I've enjoyed all the stories I've read from you. I've even gone back to read a few of them a few times. Life can truly get the better of us. I do truly hope you come back to give us another one of your great stories someday but if you dont, I hope you are happy and proud of what your doing now currently in your life❤️❤️❤️❤️
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