yehjawaanihaideewani

श्री कृष्ण गोविंद हरे मुरारी, हे नाथ नारायण वासुदेवा ॥ 

Seriously have no idea how a person could be so........inhuman?? Have we not learnt anything from Hiroshima and Nagasaki tragedy?? How can someone be such a monster to even think about using a nuclear weapon? To all the Ukrainians, I know it's not enough, but I stand by you even if my country doesn't. 

Okay, what do the readers of 'The Big Fat Indian Wedding' want.
          
          A short chapter right now or a long one two or three days later?

Guys, I'm not even kidding, when I say I got some magical power or something.
          
          So, a few days ago, I really felt like having an ice-cream, and I told my mother about it, but neither of us were willing to go out and buy it, so I left it there, but then that very same night my father brings home ice-cream, and neither my mom nor me told him to do so.
          
          So, yesterday I do the same thing. I tell my mom I'm craving ice-cream and just as a joke tell her that my father will definitely bring some on his way home. And guess what? HE DOES!! 
          
          So, now I've this magical power of manifesting ice-cream. 

Covid + depression + bad day + period cramps. And it hasn't even been 2 weeks into 2022. Can it get any more worse?

I'M UNSUBSCRIBING!!!!! ( ･ั﹏･ั)( ･ั﹏･ั)

I swear if this is the second time I'm getting covid in less than a year, I'm unsubscribing ¯\_༼ᴼل͜ᴼ༽_/¯

Have any of you ever read a sentence in a book that you related to such an extent that you stare at it for over half an hour and keep replaying that sentence in your head over a thousand times?
          
          Because I just did. I was reading 'Turtles all the way down' and two sentences so far really resonated with me. 
          
          1. I was so good at being a kid, and so terrible at being whatever I was now.
          
          But the one that brought tears to my eyes was the one below. And I'm literally not even kidding you when I say that this was honestly what I kept thinking the last few weeks and when I read the EXACT SAME thing it felt like.... i just can't describe it. 
          
          2. It felt like I was watching the whole thing from somewhere else, like I was watching a movie about my life instead of living it.
          
          What are some sentences that you read that made you feel that way?
          

2 months ago I decided to refrain from this attempt of my exam as I was and am still struggling with my mental health. For an over achiever like me it was a very difficult decision. This 3 month break made me feel a lot of things including guilt, anger, loneliness, worthless etc. Watching my friends I felt like I put a pause on my life, this 3 months felt like 3 years to be honest. And many told me how I was running away and was not brave enough, but to them I just want to say that the decision to skip this attempt took me more courage than it would've taken to write the exam not giving my best. I knew I would've atleast got passing marks but then I would've not been satisfied with it, I'm a person who would either do things to my ultimate best or not do it at all. So, by choosing to skip this attempt I choose myself over what others wanted of me and do I regret it? Not in a single moment. So people prioritise your mental health, please. 

Physical health is as fucked up as Mental health. I think I have depression (self diagnosed) and today I told my mother that I wish to see a psychiatrist as it's not getting any better and now it's probably been 3 months and also my doctor says that my blood reports state that I'm very close to having arthritis. So yes 2021 has been the best year!!