is it so bad
to want to die
to ask god why
to want everything 
to leave you for good
to watch as your torment
your hurt and your pain
are stripped from you
I can't imagine how it's bad

everything around me 
screams live and don't give up
but all that's inside my crushed body
tells me I've had enough
I think of all the possible ways
I could hope to pass
from popping pills to hang myself
wishing every moments my last

but death seems all to serious
what if I just got away
run from home or cut myself
I could live another day
make my body suffer
like my insides do
show my pain from inside
my body might still be living
but I assure you my heart had died

I feel so morbid
so wrong and unnatural
who could think something like this
what's wrong with me
I feel insane
somethings wrong with my brain
but I have no idea what it could be

I feel alone
I don't want my sister or friends
I just want to hurt
I want to hurt like never before
to feel to know I'm alive
or to end it
to be sure I feel nothing
but i don't think I'm ready to die

I just wanna hurt
I don't want to sleep
I don't want to eat
I just wanna hurt
I don't care what's wrong with me
just let me die in this moment
to break free for a second
I just wanna hurt