Echoes in the darkness

meet up

she looked in his eyes as he gave her  a look of uncertainty . he didn't know if he should talk to her or just leave her be but he felt like he wanted to start a conversation with her because it's been a while since he spoke to someone
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but then again nothing felt the same after her death he didn't even feel the need to talk to people other than when shopping for grocceris the female cashier would start up a convo with him or when some of his friends would sometimes call to check on him, they really missed him .

they wanted their friend back how he used to be and not just this  empty looking man . he cleared his throat and said in a quiet voice but if it wasn't for the dark and empty alley she wouldn't have heard him:

"umm... what are you doing ?"
she looked at him and couldn't help but think he's so handsome. she gave the rest of the tuna can to the remaining cat  .

she feeds the stray cats in her neighborhood and buys them medecine too . it's something she can't really controle , every time she moves to a new house she builds a friendsip with the cats in there and feeds them twice a day .

She was the kind of girl that women loved to hate. She was an adult for sure, but so young that she still had the exuberance of youth. She had that movie star look, not overly tall and willowy, but more like an action star.

  She wasn't just flawless in her bone structure, her skin was like silk over glass and she radiated an intelligent beauty. she had long black hair that reached her hips she was slim and fit .

" I'm feeding mina and black , aren't they adorable ?" .
she then proceeded to pet them and whisper a few words that made the cats meow back as if they understood her . she threw the trash in the dumpster and then walked towards namjoon .

" what are YOU doing must i ask ? " she asked confidently . namjoon looked down at his feet and whispered " i came down for a smoke "

then looked up to find her staring at him straight in the eyes he couldn't tell her eye color due to the darkness of the night .
she cleared her throat and reached out to shake his hands.

" i'm sung hyemi i live in this building what about you ? what's your name ? " namjoon looked at her hand hesitantly not knowing if he should shake it or not . I mean what's gonna come out of a small hand shake ? nothing,  so he shook her hand and nodded saying.

" I'm kim namjoon .... I also live in the same building as you . I should get going .. umm nice to meet you . " then he turned back and as he was walking he heard her shout  " wait namjoon!! " he looked back to find her smiling so faintly.
" we should go back together since we're in the same building " she ran to him and said " let's go it's getting cold" .
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Namjoon's pov:
I entered the cold and silent appartement and looked around me  . I  went straight to the windows and opened them allowing the night breeze to enter inside .

this feels refreshing, I'm thinking  about cleaning around a bit since it's getting dusty and it's really bothering me .funny how this house used to look so clean and so welcoming but now it's just a place for me to sleep in nothing more , I don't feel as excited coming back home  .

I don't even spend my day here since I've no one to hang out with . "ughh.... I can't do this anymore." I grabbed a jacket and my cigarette pack and headed towards the door .

checking the time it's almost 2 a.m . I headed downstairs and went straight to this nearby night club . I  needed something to get my mind off my thoughts that are slowly starting to weigh down on me .

I couldn't remember the last time i had an alcoholic drink but I'm fairly certain it hadn't been at 2a.m I really hate drinking but right now i do need it like no other thing .

I must forget, yes . that's what I keep repeating to myself everyday . I reached the club and it's so crowded i wonder why all these people here ? are they only seeking entertaintment or some of them are here like me ? yeah probably .

I showed the security guy my id and pushed the door open to be welcomed with the strong and intense smell of alcohol mixed with sweat . this place stinks I'm starting to regret coming here . I pushed my way through the people grinding on eachother .

as i was walking I felt a hand on my lower back turning around i saw a girl with barely anything on she was almost naked . ew. " do you want to dance with me handsome ? " she said and her breath reeks of alcohol .

I swatted her hands away and said " no thanks i'm not interested. " continuing down the path i walked in i found the bar . thank god .

the bartender asked what i wanted and i simply ansewerd with the stongest thing they have . i drank whatever he gave me and put my head on my hands . it's like getting into cold water , isn't it ? and i've got enough holiday memories of slowly inching my way into the sea, like i could somehow trick my body into not realising what was happening , to know you've just got to get it over with. one of the girls sitting at the bar approached me and sat beside me silently for a few minute before muttering slowly :

" you're here to forget aren't ya ?  let me tell a poem i once read and kept it in mind ; it's called WARS INSIDE YOU ;

there are silences inside you
that you have yet to explore
there are things inside you
that are still fighting a war

some days will be unkind
some days you will want to forget
but stay for those days
that are worth more than all the rest

be easy on your soul
it needs softness
it needs time
it needs patience " .

I  turned my head to look at her but she has already gotten up and about to leave . I got up and ran after her but she was no where to be seen I looked everywhere but it felt like she vanished into thin air . I went back to the bar and drank a couple of drinks before finally going home at almost 5 a.m .

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