Echoes in the darkness

I wasn't ready to say goodbye

Her heart stopped beating as her skin got tight ashen in color all her muscles started to relax . The temperature in her body dropped .

After 30 minutes :
Her goddesse like skin started to get purple and disgustingly waxy . Her once plump red lips and her shiny fingernails both were fading to a pale color .

She turned blue. As the thick and red blood started pouring out of her head . Her soul left her body like it was never there.

It all happened too soon . She died too soon . Death is so cruel. She left so much behind her . Most importantly she left him.

Can you imagine his reaction when he hears she's gone ? How would he react ? Scared ? Sad ? Or angry ? Will this be the end of him ? So many questions to ask .

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Namjoon was sitting on his old crusty couch it was brownish and had several holes in it . He was thinking about getting a new one after saving up for a while he sighed as he took his shoes off and placed them under the small coffee table that was in front of him .

In an hour he was going to check on hyejin she went for her usual monthly check up . He would usually go with her but today she insisted she'd go alone since it's his day off and she wanted him to rest and not go to the ugly looking public hospital. He absolutely despised hospitals ever since he was rushed to the hospital when his dad got a phone call about his mother dying he couldn't bear the thought of going in there anymore .

The smell of medicine and sick people still lingered in the back of his head. Every time he would accompany her to there he couldn't help but feel nauseous and dark memories would just come back rushing to his head and would just make it one big foggy cloud.

His phone rang he thought it was hyejin that called to inform him that she needed him to pick her up . he picked up the phone from the kitchen island and looked at the caller ID but it wasn't hyejin he cleared his throat as he answered whoever called him. Something was off he could tell .

" hello who is this ?" But he wished he never heard what the person on the other side had to say .

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" what no what do you mean she died ? " he shouted at the doctor who called to inform him that hyejin got hit by a car and she sadly passed away.

Namjoon's mind stopped functioning . Was he dreaming ? He retreated the phone from his ear and looked at the caller ID once again.

" I'm sorry but are you sure it's Kim hyejin my wife ? No it can't be she called me 15 minutes ago she's okay. She's fine she didn't die . Right ? It...'s no-t hyejin right ?
She's perfectly fine I'm supposed to pick her up in an hour . "

words rushed out of his mouth as the news started to kick in it couldn't be a prank call. I mean who would call him to tell him his wife died .
Death is not a joke .

" please calm down mr.kim. unfortunately your wife miss kim hyejin died five minutes ago . She's in seoul public hospital right now. We only reached you first as you're the last one she called .

Please be here in 30 minutes we need to go through some paper works . We tried our best to help her but she was already bleeding a lot and had an internal bleeding . I'm sorry for your loss , may her soul rest in peace . "

those words made namjoon's world crumble to pieces. it was at this moment he knew , his life is going to be the same as before. Every moment with her flashed before his eyes from the second he met her 2 years ago till this morning. This was all gone.

He got up as fast as possible and wore his shoes without untying it , grabbing his keys along the way he rushed to the hospital wishing that the doctor made a mistake and it wasn't his hyejin that died . He was still in denial still not absorbing the fact that she's gone yet .

That's the thing about death it takes away the most precious things in life in the most unexpected ways and time. After 10 minutes of running without a thought in head namjoon finally reached the hospital he went straight to the receptionist and said in a taut voice " kim hyejin my wife ... a doctor called and said she died.... where is she ?? Is it true ? ... It's not my wife right ? "

The receptionist looked at him pitifully waiting for him to calm down so she can tell him where she is.

" calm down mr kim she's in room 325 please take the elevator and go straight to the third floor "
Namjoon couldn't help but wonder Why do they keep telling him to calm down . How could he ? When he was about to walk in on his wife's lifeless body .

There she was laying on the bed with a blanket covering her whole body including her face.

Namjoon was afraid to take off the blanket and show her face. He was terrified to say the least . A doctor came in and stood beside him patting him on the shoulder and proceeded to show hyejin's pale face. Namjoon took in a harsh breath there was no going back now it's her . His love , his everything.

She layed before his eyes with no sound coming out of her. Her once pink cheeks were now white . His eyes are beginning to water ,

tears are threatening to fall it was taking everything in his will not to break down in front of the doctor and now the two nurses that came in to take off the medical equipment .

How did this happen . Namjoon was so confused he remembered just yesterday they were laughing together and he remembers he was so happy . But now it's a different story he just couldn't grasp the fact that she died.

Namjoon turned around when he heard the doctor hum . " sir .. umm I'm sorry to tell you but you must know.... ms kim hyejin was pregnant with a girl but unfortunately your baby wasn't old enough to bear the car crash . "

the doctor looked down as he realised what he just said . he just completly broke down he sat there, dominated by a profound sadness, fatigue engraved on his worn face. The sorrow grew more profound each second he spent in this quiet, lonely hospital room , the solemn walls reviving the memory of the loss he's encountering right now . He was just a shell of a man.

In that moment the sure knowledge that life would go on without her ,that time was only stopped for him , undid him completely.he cast his eyes to God, he needed her love more than ever now. "Dear God, take care of my baby."

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hope you guys like this chapter . there's still more to come . it's not gonna always be this sad hahaaha .
but anyways what do you think ?