Just Hold Me (Forever)

PROLOGUE

I hate it. I don't even know who really I am. Why does everyone is important and all of them wanted me to choose only one of them. Why does Claude keep on messing my life, my feelings. I love Haisha but Claude keeps on running in my mind. Don't tell me I already like Claude? This can't be. I might hurt Haisha, should I tell her that this relationship isn't working anymore? It's hard to be in a relationship.

While waiting Haisha to come I heard my phone ringing, it was Claude. I don't know what's with this guy, I already told him to stay away and don't bother me anymore. There's something inside me that wanted to answer the phone but Haisha hug me from the back, so I decided to hide my phone.

"Love, I miss you" she said while giving me the best back hug. Cringe for me, but for Haisha it is not.

I want to tell her that I wanted to take a rest, in this relationship. I'm tired of thinking who I really like, Haisha is a loving person and she's always there to take care of me. But I can't push myself to like her, It's just that I'm scared to lost her if I busted and ignore here confession. I don't want to lose someone who's very important to me.

"Haisha, I have something to tell you" I said lying in my bed looking straight on the ceiling.

"Hmm What is that love? You're not even calling me 'love'" she said and pout her lips.

Should I tell her? I'm scared. I might hurt her a lot and ruin everything, ruin our friendship.

"I'm still confused Haisha" I said. I guess she knows what I meant.

She look at me in the eyes, she gave me the 'what's-your-plan-look'.

"I don't know what to do" I said. I want to tell her that I need to break this relationship but I'm scared.

"Love are you breaking up with me?" She said and her tears starting to fall. I don't want to see her crying just because of me.

"Please just leave Haisha, I want to take a rest. A cool off? Just give me time Haisha, I'm confused" I said. I don't want to look at her face, she's crying and I don't want to cry in front of her.

"Alizra, love we can still fix this. Promise me after the cool off you will comeback to me. Love please" She said while sobbing. I don't want to see her in that way, I'm hurting her because of this stupid confusion. Claude really hit a big damage.

"Please just leave Haisha, leave" I said shouting. I can't take it anymore, I want her to be happy before I fall, fall for Claude.

Yes I'm slowly falling for Claude. The stupid guy is making me crazy, he's making me a real girl.

This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events, locales, and incidents are either the products of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.